u/tryng2figurethsalout

For some reason God has positioned me around a lot of insecure women that fear me stealing their men, or fear their men wishing deep down that they could have me and/or be with me.

I try to help these women out by only wearing high necked and/or fully buttoned up blouses, going without make up, play down my positive attributes, treating their men less friendly etc,. But I still feel like I'm walking on eggshells around their women insecurities. I don't know what to do, but just shine and let the chips fall at this point. But I know that there's going to be a lot of backlash.

White Jesus was psychological warfare to the African American in order to get us to put whiteness on a pedestal, and put ourselves last.

The African was the first human being on this planet. God created us in his image.

The Bible says that he has hair of wool texture, and skin like burnished bronze.

The first Bible ever written was Ethiopian.

No offense, but it might be one of the factors playing into your depression because you're putting all of your eggs into the wrong basket.

Being the scapegoat of the family from both parents really sucks hard. I think what made it worse for me was being born a girl. (If there are some black male scapegoats I'd love to hear from you because I seriously doubt you exist.)

But your upbringing really shapes you for the rest of your life. My parents talked about me like dirt and treated me like I mattered last. Especially on the social emotional front. This really has impacted how I've been able to show up in the world.

I've been fighting it and trying to heal for years. But the fact that it's taken me years is the keyword. And there's still a crap ton of damages left.

It doesn't help that my father still treats me like shit. He still gaslights the hell out of me, bullies me especially around family, and minimizes my emotions. I know you're supposed to be able to move on as you get older, but it totally makes sense why I've made the romantic choices that I've had with men seeing how my father relates to me.

I hate whenever I'm complaining about work, and someone suggests that I just find another job. The reason I have the problem is because I'm black and we live in a racist society. All of these people within these jobs are the same. This is essentially why so many black people job hop now. It's not as simple as just finding another job because it's a systemic issue.

Not to mention wage stagnation and inflation.

If I go to another company the same attitudes will just manifest within another way. My personal solution is to at least do something I'm passionate about, that way it makes things feel a little more worthwhile. But I just get tired of the bs advice and the lack of empathy sometimes.

That's why I say slavery was the curse, and reparations is the only way we'll get out of this cyclical hellhole.

Because it's doing something to my mental having whites and white Latinos talk down to me, and treat me second class on the job. Except for when they're ready to throw me a bone.

When at work, and when there's a lot going on in my mind and around me at once, hence disorganization, I freeze. I froze for like a minute . Less than a minute. This causes it to look like I'm not doing any work. And she freaked out. Being a black woman this is not a good look as my white coworker then assumes that I'm trying to "get over" on her, and do less work. I've recently put two and two together, and will have the conversation to explain to her what's going on, but man it gets tiring to have my character questioned like this due to my race.

I know people will look at this funny like reparations is just money, like how though? But it's so much more than that. Reparations is like the country apologizing for being wrong in what it did to our ancestors for slavery. Slavery's why were stuck with all of these issues we have now as it pertains to trauma, depression, anxiety etc. Look up epigenetic/intergenerational trauma. There isn't much on African Americans, but we have some on the Jewish population.

Slavery is what put a curse on our people and made society believe that black was bad and white was the complete opposite. This is why society mistreats us and why we mistreat one another. It was centuries of brainwashing. But what reparations does is that it gives status, opportunity, and gives us back the power that was stolen from us as a people to make our mark out on the world as God intended for us.

Redditor crazy_suit_7899 mentioned how whites run the government, political positions, management, CEO positions, the infrastructure of society. How they control the media. They hold systemic power over us, being the center of our world. How you can ignore them, but they won't ignore you." And that's true, and it got like this all because of the transatlantic slave trade. They stepped on the backs of slaves. On the backs of our ancestors to get where they are today.

Reparations allow us the chance to afford housing, mental health care, and medical insurance. If you have the funds and then decide not to do anything about it. It is no longer the fault of whites, especially the ones in power, but your own.

You may ask how can they afford it. But if they can afford millions upon millions to billionaire tax brakes, Ukrainians, and U.S. military defense then they can afford it. Dream big.

If Jewish people deserve billions in reperations as a group why not us!?!

At this point if you're not pro-reparations for African Americans you are selling all black people short. Not to mention yourself. It benefits whites because they can finally say we are all on the same playing field, and are truly equals.

And remember, everything starts with energy, intention, and thought.

I have a new white female co-worker that's already adding a negative vibe to my entire day.

When we first met she acted like she was above speaking to me (she gave faces like, "okay why am I talking to you??")when where I work at everyone greets and speaks to each other regardless of race, and just greets the new people. That was my first sign.

Now she's working in the same rooms as me, and is adding stress to my days. She's prying into my personal business and feels entitled to information about me.

She undermines me on the job and acts as though I'm not there when I am.

She's making negative assumptions about my interactions at work with the children. Because we're teachers.

And I'm noticing that I'm leaving work feeling upset and frustrated now. Whereas before I wasn't.

And it's her constant attempts at character assassination. Which is something these hater ass white women I notice love to do towards me.

She's going to school to be a therapist, which makes me worry about her black (female) BIPOC clients. Because she definitely has a racist bias and will not be a fair and good therapist to them.

I'm realizing why I worked so hard to avoid working with white women in the workplace and instead went and isolated myself in the woods with a white man for a certain period of time. Because white women make the workplace an insufferable place to exist within. The attacks get to be too much.

Yeah, I could start my own business but that takes time and certain privileges too ...

Ladies have you ever had a man walk or drive past you and want to look at you, but instead he quickly turns his head to look at the opposite direction?

And it will be so obvious. Like you could either look at me, or at that lame ass building. 😆

Like I know I'm not going crazy.

Does anyone notice that whenever a black woman takes a nice photo with a non-black woman, there's always an emphasis placed on how much more the commentor has interest in the non-black woman than the black woman? Or they'll just say that both women are equally beautiful?

I notice this when looking at celebrity black women pictures of all people. And what's crazy is that most celebrity black women look the best out of all women and age the best, so it's all just crazy talk.

They'll never miss an opportunity to knock a black woman down a peg and/or deny her her flowers.

I noticed that whenever I'm making a purchase. When it's a non-black cashier person they never wait until I put my money away before they start ringing the next person up. Heck, I bet they wish they could start ringing the other person up behind me as they simultaneously ring me up at the same time just because I'm a black woman, and for nothing else.

I can wear leggings or short shorts and have it be hyper sexualized just for being a black woman. When I wear leggings it's more of a problem because it's sexier than when a white woman does it. We all know how black girls are hypersexualized when wearing short shorts because of our supposed extra melanin closer to the booty area. Yet at the same time we're told we're not as sexy as non-black women. Sometimes I hate being on this planet. 🫠🥴🫩🫠

The mods just deleted my previous post about the new requirements for medicaid, which requires you to work 80 hours. I complained about how ridiculous and infuriating that is. As well as mentioned how I just loss my medical coverage and food assistance.

Apparently the mods of this sub don't think that can be mentally taxing. The medicaid coverage, which allowed me to see a therapist, a psychiatrist, and to receive life stabilizing mental health medications.

Which leads me to believe something is fishy about them in this sub for real. Maybe it's because I complained about their precious orange idiot leader, just sayin'..

Where I'm from the government has made it to where you now have to work 80 hours to qualify for food assistance and medicaid. I can't even begin to describe how ridiculous and infuriating this is. That orange idiot and his Republican cronies is the worse president if not one of the worse presidents in history.

This couldn't possibly be why I just loss my medical coverage 🤔🤔

Today I had a transaction at the store. As soon as you guess it, the white man customer shows up behind me he starts to get fidgety that he has to wait at all. My situation took longer than expected, so like an idiot I apologized, which just egged him on more. He then demanded to know what was taking so long.

I was about ready to curse him out, but Lord knows that my nerves couldn't handle another negative argumentative encounter with a racist loud and entitled angry white man. So I let it go.

I'm tired of white mens entitled angry impatience.

If I walk around casual and carefree they'll criminalize me like they do black men. If I walk around prim and proper they'll try to group me in with Karen white women to help take the emotional load off of them.

It's like we can't win either way. Wow.