How do I 24f rebuild trust w 26m after cheating
TLDR: we never dated officially but I had another guy I was serious with cause he would never fully commit to me
Long story short I (24f) have on and off seen a guy (26m) over the past 3.5 years. We’ve never officially dated but have come close but we have never fully trusted each other. He would never fully commit, he had trust issues to begin with because he thought I didn’t like him as much as he liked me (I thought he didn’t care as much as I cared) but we reconnected and have broken things off and gotten back together. Long story short we were on another break and I was feeling like I just wanted emotional stability so I tarted dating a guy but I folded instantly when my on and off again guy hit me up. It’s been so unstable and such a source of immense joy but immense pain that I wanted a way to feel stable while still being with the man I know I truly love. I know it’s wrong and I want to take accountability for what I’ve done and I’ve apologized and shared my location and phone passwords and social media passwords and I have tried to reconcile with his friends and family but I just feel terrible and I don’t know how much of everything everyone knows. He could never stop liking girls online and looking at them and I just felt like if he really cared he would’ve stopped that and asked me to be serious. How can we repair and rebuild? What actionable steps can I take? I truly intend to be completely loyal to him and I truly don’t want anyone else I was just scared of being hurt so I did something so truly hurtful.