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I refuse to go get anymore 7 or hydrocodone or Percocet. I can’t anymore.

Today is day 12 and physically I’m fine just still a little sweaty and certain stuff just heats me up so quick. Sleep is slowly coming back

But my mind today feels like I’m back to day 5-7 just trying to count hours to not go grab some stupid ass tabs. I’m not gonna I’m fucking done but I didn’t realize everything w this shit last times I’ve quit and now I’ve done my paws research cause In the past like most of you I’ve told myself well I’m gonna quit and just use recreationally once I feel better. I know better now I don’t want to touch it but does any have tips for what they do on those days where you just shutdown?

I legit layed on the couch most all day today. Even at day 4 I made myself workout. Shit is annoying but any tips or advice is appreciated

I’ve successfully made it to day 11!! Last night I fucking got 8 hrs of sleep yall I could cry. I been taking my multivitamin, fish oils, vit c and hormone balancer everyday/night. Drinking protein and creatine shakes every morning.

Nothing was working for natural sleep no matter how much I pushed myself. I was getting 1-2hrs every night.

Last night I grabbed the weighted blanket out the closet layed down passed out around 10:30 woke up at 630!!!! Didn’t wake up once last night I’m so happy.

Keep it up yall 10 days ago I was 1000mg plus a day with some mgm in there. I feel so much better now guys it’s so worth it it’s a confusing first week but after that the clouds fr start to go away a little bit more and more each day.

My insomnia is so bad I hasn’t slept at all today regardless of running and working out/work/sauna all yesterday but that’s just how she goes. Gonna get it today hopefully I just pass tf out tonight..

I hit an NA meeting yesterday and I feel really happy just fucking tired. They’re some good ass people

Also I have gabapentin but how much can I take to help me sleep bc I’m taking a whole regimen off vitamins and sleep stuff and my body just won’t sleep..

Fuck it we ball though if I can do it 1000mg+ a day CT yall can do any amount below that I swear. My mindset just has to stay positive I’m really catching myself this time

Anyone tried this nootropic for PAWS?? I really think I’m gonna order some has anyone had success? Someone messaged me and I read up on it and I think I’m ab to cop a nasal spray bottle it’s 35 for like 180 hits. It’s not addictive and literally just jump starts your dopamine and brain stuff. Super interesting look it up lmk if anyone has tried

im nervous ordering stuff that says not for human consumption now lmao. Should’ve remember my good ol k2 high school days when everyone was getting drug tested by their mom or PO lmao

It’s 530 I’m emotional this morning but I checked my day 5 on my mirror looking myself in my baggy ass depressed eyes. Sounds like I’m sad I’m just tired and exhausted.

I truly feel so much better I just am still upset at myself how much further I could be if I would’ve stuck to it the other 3-4 times. Everyone that checks this and reads it and you’ve been trying that’s all it takes you know it needs to change m. You will get it I promise. Try praying and catching your thoughts when you’re doubting yourself or being a pussy. It’s physical for 3-4 days and then it’s mental as fuck. I’m not gonna lie the mental is the hardest part. I’m gonna make myself workout and run here in an hr two when my girl gets up and then try and work today.

Man feeling your brain being rewired is insane. Keep it up yall even if you’re too scared and just one of those lurkers reading wanting to stop that’s been me for the past year. This time I’m posting and responding and trying to talk on all posts I see it really helps. My whole timeline of tik tok and everything is sober videos and I’m so grateful. I got one add for 7 while I was scrolling and it made me feel mad. I think I’ve put myself through enough wd hells I really am determined yall. If anyone needs anything help or a listening ear lmk

How’s everybody doing my girl is the bomb. Today I’ve walked my dog, as I’m typing this I’m in the garage finishing a lift/cardio session I read 8 chapters of the Bible and I called my family to apologize and explain why I’ve been so distant the past years but asked them to keep tabs on me if possible. This lift and run is the best thing I’ve done by far it took all my mental strength and I fucking love that I did it I was crying as I was doing my usual arm routine w dopamine flowing I guess idk. I’m very hopeful today also got some DIIMM 400mg hormone supplements I’m on TRT already and some lithium oriate. Do some reading on the lithium guys stay hopeful and strong remember that bullshit is not true happiness

I decided Thursday I was done. I had CT a couple months back when my girl was really sick not from WD and seeing her strength pushed me to do it. We were moving into a house and it was almost my bday I was like this is it we got this I was so motivated… well I danced with the devil we got In a bad fight and I said fuck it and went hard for about a month and a half again. I’m on day 2-3 today I’m not gonna lie yesterday I did cave cause I had to mow the lawn and clean the hose but I just got one single serve pill and I felt so fucking guilty.

I’ve some stuff as helper meds but kinda been eating them too early and passing out at 8 and waking up 3-4. Out of most of it now so I just been eating my edibles, smoking bowls, dosing vitamin c and I actually walked my dog and hit my dmt pen and cried at the beauty of what could possibly be. I want it but I just don’t get my brain. I’ve tried to quit multiple times now but I told my girl that if I can’t this time I’m going on sublocade for a month or two.

She’s amazing tho and says don’t even say that you got this I saw you last time this isn’t as bad. I just pray I can make it I hate this shit. I have to keep it on my mind and talk about it constantly to keep up for right now. I really am thinking about NA meetings.

I’ve kicked 7 a few times CT just grabbing a single serve pill when the dread is too much. I always last a few weeks to a couple months every time then trick myself back when I have a rough day. Then before I know it it’s two months of daily use later and I’m waking up sick in the middle of the night… I’m on my 4th time trying to kick it for good and I picked up two packs of (5) 20mg mgm tabs 100 mg total.

Is it a bad idea to use these over 3-4 days to get most 7 out of my system? Will I feel even worse after mgm since it’s still kinda an opiate or will it work bc I can take a 20mg tab of this mgm and not be sick for 12+ hrs where w 7 I feel sick in the middle of the night. Any help is appreciated I hate this shit and I really think that SR stuff is a myth lol. Everyone praises it but no one can seem to say where to get it or show it.