u/themermaidmuse

Honestly I remember thinking me and my true soulmate were somehow going to bring back all the snakes to Ireland (that st pat got rid of) that the origins of the universe lay in Italian witchcraft (stregheria) that there were all these esoteric meanings in nursery rhymes, that I was the goddess of the thames and reading about the river thames in every paper. I know it can be very cryptic and overwhelming. But gosh I actually miss it so so much, especially getting constant intuitive knowledge or riddles about my true soulmate.

Does anyone have some wisdom on soulmates, or the absolute one? I have met many loves in this life. But the most potent one I met in 2016, I had been dreaming of and intuiting that my true soulmate was a redhead for a few years, I knew this. I knew his symbols too or things associated with him. I thought I would never meet him ever, but did in 2016. I knew immediately it was him, he looked like eddie redmayne, perhaps he was some copy of my true soulmate. I don't know what it was? but it was truly like a bell tolling inside you, you had the most unbelievable sense of gut certainty, like you were no longer searching for anything ever again. I felt like I wanted to follow this person for a billion years. I remember I wrote that down.

He went into a concert across the road and I never spoke to him. Later when I was home I dreamt of my grandmother, my Irish ancestors, of this redhead soulmate, of knowing of him since childhood, he stood in the dream holding a piece of paper with all the ancient Irish words for soulmate on it, the only one I recognised was anam cara. i felt like poetry was the main thing between us.

No other person I've been in love with has ever felt as top note, as important, as much 'the one' as him, anytime things about soulmates come up I only think of him. With every other guy is really just confusion about what they are. Even the guy I love now, my beloved, he is definitely not my soulmate. Has never felt that way.

How do you bear it? What do you do? I'm tired of loving people who don't resonate in that deep, certain and profound way? Who are not my true soulmate? I realised today that I hate it💙🌿🌀

I have really reached a point of exhaustion with it all, I really I feel like I'm losing my mind over it all now, or maybe that's four nights of no real good sleep. He stalks my Reddit, he stalks my Pinterest, he puts spyware on my phone remotely and reads my every word for years! I feel him on me all the time, every minute of the day. I just really will only feel peace when he is gone from my life. 🌿