And I don't just mean girls who do magic, I mean the actual magical girl trope/aesthetic. If there aren't any I'd settle for a good fanfic.
Edit: And I mean books, not manga, not comics or graphic novels.
That's what the endocrinologist said to me years ago to deny me HRT, that I needed to lose weight before medically transitioning because it could be dangerous. Turns out, losing weight is pretty hard while I'm depressed from not being able to transition, who knew! So I've kinda wasted all my 20's having to live as a man.
Was my endocrinologist right or were they just gatekeeping HRT from me?
Sorry if I explain myself badly. Like I read books and those authors often use all these metaphors and deep sentences and flowery descriptions, they don't just tell you what happen but they spark the reader's imagination, and I understand them while I read them but... those things just don't come to my head when I write. I feel I just write the blandest, most generic descriptions, dialogue and internal thoughts, like it's not what a reader like myself would want in a book, it just reads like how I explain things normally, and when I try to make it differently my mind goes blank. I've been reading more in order to learn but I haven't gotten better at it, and when I try to emulate them I can't come up with my own stuff.
I'm beginning to fear my brain just doesn't work that way and maybe I have no talent for writing. At first I blamed it on the autism but nope that's not it, lots of autistic authors out there who do get it. Even first-time writers and random fanfic writers somehow seem miles ahead from me in this aspect.
Is there any way to actively learn this part of the craft, or is writing just not for me?