u/thatjas

Ever since I came down from my manic psychotic episode, everything has been abysmally boring. Suddenly I hate trying new things and the things I used to enjoy bore me so much I don’t do them anymore. I feel like I’m not living, I’m just waiting to die. Every waking moment pisses me off.

Has anyone experienced anything similar? Were there any meds that helped?

I’ve asked similar questions here and elsewhere but everyone says “give it time”. Time is making it worse. I hate myself and I hate my life.

I need a drug that makes me feel like a person again.

Have you noticed a difference in side effects between Lithium IR vs Lithium ER?

I’m taking 600mg (recently decreased from 1200mg) of Lithium IR right now and it’s worsened my scalp problems, makes my hair excessively greasy, causes face/body acne, acid reflux, and may be the culprit in my weight gain as well. My psychiatrist just switched me to 300mg Lithium ER 2x daily. Is this going to help with my side effects? I don’t have any psychiatric side effects unless it’s contributing to my avolition/anhedonia, but I think that’s just post manic psychotic depression.

Have you noticed a difference in side effects between Lithium IR vs Lithium ER?

I’m taking 600mg (recently decreased from 1200mg) of Lithium IR right now and it’s worsened my scalp problems, makes my hair excessively greasy, causes face/body acne, acid reflux, and may be the culprit in my weight gain as well. My psychiatrist just switched me to 300mg Lithium ER 2x daily. Is this going to help with my side effects? I don’t have any psychiatric side effects unless it’s contributing to my avolition/anhedonia, but I think that’s just post manic psychotic depression.

When did you start to feel like a normal person again after your manic/psychotic episode? Do you have to continue taking meds or were you able to get off of them?

I’m getting frustrated with my pessimism and lack of interest in everything. I don’t even feel like a shell of who I used to be- I feel like nothing. No interests, no hobbies, no cares, no relationships. Just nothing. Won’t even bother to care for myself because…? I just don’t.

After my manic psychotic episode and hospitalization recently nothing feels the same. I can’t focus on anything. I lost my desire to try new things. I’m extremely negative and can’t fake positivity- I’ve tried and my mind just goes blank. I don’t want to see my friends in person and when I do text them everything I have to say is negative which I’m sure is draining for them.

I have no interest in anything. World affairs, personal affairs, whatever. I can’t even play a simple video game for more than 15 minutes before I stop and it always feels like a waste of time anyways.

Did the psychosis do this? Can anyone relate?

My hobbies before were skincare/personal care, exploring the city, watching movies and tv shows, hanging out with friends, dating. Now I just kind of exist and I hate it.

I start a job next month but I’m worried my brain is too slow for it. And I’m worried about showing up to work since I haven’t been doing anything to care for myself.