I often wish my dad had killed himself. It's fucked up, I know, but if he just did it when he was threatening my life would have been so much better. My family wouldn't be broken, I'd still have contact with my grandparents, and I wouldn't have been abused for years. I also wouldn't have gotten to know how truly horrible a person he is during my parents' divorce. His actions were so atrocious that his friends were disgusted with him; they testified against him in court. I just feel so guilty for having these thoughts, and wonder if anyone else has had a similar experience?
u/thalia49er — 7 days ago