u/suprisedpikachumeme

i haven’t seen my little sister in almost 10 years, we’re half siblings and her mom won’t allow my family to see her. there’s not much we can do right now because she’s not even 14 yet and our dad is in jail

i miss her so much. it’s not fair. we didn’t deserve to be kept away from eachother. i know next to nothing about my little sister, i don’t even know her favorite color, i don’t know what she likes, i don’t know what she looks like, etc. our older siblings miss her too.

i hear about people in similar situations being able to reunite with their siblings and all i can do is wonder when i’ll see her or even talk to her again. i’m so jealous of those people who got to reunite. i want that.

i found an old photo of a self inflicted wound i did in 2021. i looked at it and wished i could’ve gone that deep again before i decided to recover again. i’ve been clean since january and i won’t relapse but i just wish i could’ve gone deeper during my last relapse. of course it’s good that i didn’t because i know that’s really dangerous (self harm as a whole is dangerous but i hope you know what i mean) but i don’t know