My conservative parents found my hiding spot. Everything is in the trash. I've lost it all
I’m in absolute shock right now and I just need some support or kind words, because I have no one in real life I can talk to about this. I live with my conservative parents, and today, my absolute worst nightmare happened. They found my stash.
They threw absolutely everything away. Every single thing. My skirts, dresses, crop tops, all my lingerie, my makeup, my epilator, and my personal toys. Everything is sitting in the garbage.
For years, I struggled with the internal "purge cycle" out of shame, but I had finally stopped. I was finally accepting myself, building my wardrobe, and finding some actual emotional stability. Those weren't just objects or clothes to me; they were my lifeline. They were the only things that made me feel like the woman I actually am when the door was closed.
Now, my entire identity has been thrown in the trash. I feel so violently violated, exposed, and completely empty. It took me so much time, money, and emotional energy to gather those things in secret.
I feel physically sick. Has anyone else survived this kind of forced purge from their family? How do you even wake up the next day, walk out of your room, and look them in the eye? I just really need to know I'm not alone right now because I feel completely broken.