u/shesahandsomewoman19

It's so weird we are alive to work so hard and suffer just to die one day I'm alone everyday and I waste away highschool while everyone around me lives it up.

I'm a female and I have been conflicted with this because he's never presented himself as hardcore masculine but I feel like I'm losing a part of him since he's changing a lot. I think he will find someone else of the same gender or transition while I have nothing against this in itself I planned a life for the two of us and he is telling me he's not and I want to believe him I just can't. But I know people can have girlfriends and be femboys I just don't really want to lose him but at this point it's easier because I don't want to keep making him feel like I don't support him when I do I love him so much

It's like my anxiety and depression just have completely overtaken the beauty of the sea or the cobblestone ground replacing American concrete. I'm constantly arguing with my boyfriend over stupid shit and when I go home I have school so there's no fucking point. I've been crying every single day and my boyfriend is all I have and I think I'm losing him because he wants to explore his identity but he'll swear up and down that I'm trippin so maybe I am but Everytime we talk about something remotely bad my throat tightens i've barely eaten on this trip I don't talk to my friends anymore I'm usually sociable but I get triggered because of him lying to me and it's just a cycle when I get home everything will be the same as it was before I just want to curl up in a hole for a few years and maybe that'll fix everything.