u/sadmermaidgirl

Recently my ptsd relating to my medical trauma has been horrible. I literally cannot even function because it’s just consuming me. I even purposely trigger myself so i can remember i need to have my guard up always. I need to get back into therapy but i don’t want my therapist to condition me to forget or “heal” i don’t need to heal because i think my trauma exposed me to the truth and i would never want to forget that or let my guard down. But I’m just so angry all the time and upset in my own skin