Anyone here NOT do this? Idk… I’m not the biggest fan. A lot of the classes I go to rather than being intentional and controlled the instructor cares more about the beat and music and it ends up feeling like we are flinging our bodies
Anyone have upbeat music but NOT teach to the music / beat
No it’s not pregnancy - no sex
I’m so stressed
I’m so confused.
I had Hodgkin’s lymphoma in my left armpit, chest but biggest part in left neck a big visible lump their
I responded extremely well to treatment, in in remission and my new scans looked perfect
But I’m having horrible armpit pain. It’s scary because this armpit pain was the same pain I had prior to diagnosis so I always assumed it was cancer related, since I had cancer there.
I’ll have days of pain, then a few days of no pain. I stopped wearing deodorant all together. There is no rhyme reason or pattern. I went to my oncologist multiple times and yesterday she was very mean to me saying “if you don’t trust me maybe you need a new oncologist”
I never had a biopsy in armpit my biopsy was in my neck.
Has anyone at all experienced this? I am desperate and it’s ruining my life.
Update found out he cheated on me for the last few months
Female, 30
My boyfriend of 4 years just broke up with me (everything was fine until I brought up possibly living together… my lease is almost up and I stay at his house EVERY night, so I’m paying 2000 dollars a month to never be there)
He told me I’ve “changed” I’m “draining and depressing to him and everyone else” (everyone else tells me I am a ray of sunshine), and that me having cancer ruined his life. I “ruined his life” because he had to go to work and pretend he was okay when really he was sad about my situation.
He also had the audacity to tell me I didn’t handle cancer well. First of all, I never stopped living a normal life. I taught fitness classes, worked out at the gym, went OUT with him, etc. After my second chemo season he made me give him a bj the second we got home. He refused to ever wear condoms even though I didn’t want to take BC pills during treatment. He’s always insisted condoms don’t feel good for him and pressured me because I already felt cancer/ me being bald was ruining the relationship
He told me I didn’t handle cancer well and was too dramatic - I know this isn’t true but it really hurt as I have been so proud of how I handled it and overcame but he has made me second guess myself. Maybe I did complain too much? Maybe I was too mopey?
In a lot of ways he did support me. He was there for me and still made me feel beautiful. We were extremely physically connected and he was my best friend.
Most of my friends now live across the country I only have one here.
Anyways, I am worried for my future. I am 30. I have always wanted kids and a family. I have no idea how I will ever meet anyone. I had beautiful, long blonde hair down to my butt and now I look like a boy. I have a dark BARELY pixi cut. It’s like just above a buzz cut. What kind of guy would want to be with me? No guy will ever look at me and think “wow she’s beautiful” and try to approach me. I will never work in a field of work where I’ll meet men, my friends are gone so I can’t meet mutual friends.
I feel so discarded, ugly and sad but my biggest worry is never being loved again. Never having a boyfriend or future family. I went through the hell that is cancer just to be discarded? I didn’t think life could get any worse.
I’m tired of people saying “your hair won’t be short forever” it’s taken 6 plus months to barely be over a buzzcut. The only people that compliment it are girls, again, no guy has come up to me or even looked my way.
I feel like I’m going to be alone forever. I honestly don’t think I can do this anymore. Cancer has destroyed my life in so many ways I can’t do this anymore
EDIT:
On top of everything we almost broke up in July 2024 and I found the lump in my neck August 2024. So now I’m worried the pain (I am literally in physical heartbreaking pain) from this breakup will cause the cancer to come back