u/ready_gi

I'm just starting to realize how much self-management has helped me to improve and stabilize my symptoms and flashbacks.

Because of the high emotional nature of flashbacks, i've been trying to create a structure with kind of detached and logical perspective, so I don't keep drowning in my emotions.

For example every morning i check my body energy levels, feelings and needs and according to the data i structure my day. I've been feeling kind of burn out, because i did not apply this structure, so now im letting myself rest and not forcing myself to do anything. I acknowledge this "deep chill" kind of day and really try to relax into my body and bring this self-loving feeling, telling myself how amazing i am. This helps me feel supported and loved during my chill period, because of the acknowledgement to what is happening in my day.

The structure is like a bigger life perspective anchor that lets me relax fully.

I also try to have small amounts of activity daily, so i don't end up overstimulated and spiralling. Time limits help me a lot as well. For example 1h of creative stuff, 1h of laundry, and one small walk.

By the end of the day i also acknowledge what i did that day, i try to count all my blessings and praise myself for being so strong/ soft/ creative (whatever came up that day). All of this feels weird at first, but i really love being acknowledged, witnessed and seen and this helps me to build up my self-worth and loving feelings in my body.

Just as one learns to manage a business, learning to manage cptsd logically is really helpful for feeling in control while facing emotional pain and turbulence. Every time i applied this, all of the areas in my life improved. Also i was able to see what areas needs improvement and what to prioritize. Also it allowed me to see my suffering with more compassion and not feel like "im making shit up", because this condition is extremely difficult to manage.

Also this way of self-management allows me to look at myself through my own supportive and kind lens instead of seeing myself through societal lens and feeling like im not "good enough" or a "looser", because im "not achieving enough" BS. I think that self-supportive lens is very important to built, especially for us with CPTSD who need extra softness, encouragement, witnessing and support.

I havent seen this topic discussed that often, so i thought it might help someone. If you have any questions, i'd be happy to help.

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I had my awakening on April 2020 when i fully connected to my own feelings and body, which felt like a shot of whiskey- i had to process so much trauma and darkness from my life (which is still ongoing, but it got very mild now), but i've also experienced joy that is comparable to taking ecstasy.

I kept doing the work of staying connected to my body and feelings, intentionally, during day to day life and keep choosing peaceful and relaxing things for my life. As a part of that agenda I got my own apartment and had to cut off my traumatized, mean and manipulative family. Both of these major events resulted in me creating a safe enviroment for the first time in my life. I am a woman and I have experienced feeling like a pray and hypervigilance my entire life, because that's how the society unfortunatelly raised many women and men.

I kept having more trauma resurfacing to the point of "mental breakdown" and ended up in a hospital. Part of my breakdown was that I felt so light, I thought I was dying, because I didn't feel real. It was combination of both being disociated due to my trauma and having a consciousness raise. It was like being behind a glass wall, but feeling peaceful as hell.

I've been working on healing my disocitation and I'm getting to the point where I can just enjoy the lightness of higher conscious awareness, where i can access informations about innerworks of universe for my creative work and self-guidance so easily. When Im relaxed in the state, it's similar to a creative flow, but it's like my own life flow. I'm able to materialize everthing i wish pretty easily, it's cool. Most of the things i wish for are creative ideas or mischief and having fun. Most of the struggle is dealing with people who are not vibing there yet and try to pull me into their chaos.

Anyways, thought this might resonate with some of you fellow experiencers and just wanted to share my experience, because Im proud for raising up to my darkness and saying "sorry boo, im not gonna live in misery" and put back some of the shame and guilt to those that it belongs to (energetically, so it's not on me).

I think this is already happening to more and more people and it's pretty great way to exist. My wish is that we can vibe together in this light and good energy and create more safe spaces to express ourselves fully and honestly.

So whenever Im outside to go for a walk or bike ride and I look around me, the trees, the grass, the houses, it all seems to be kind of more transparent and in constant vibration (similarly to a mild acid trip i did once).. not sure how to describe it, but especially when i slow down and relax, it's just kind of spookily eerie, like the natural world especially is much more vibrational and nothing is as solid as i used to feel it.

Is this part of the veil thing or am I loosing my mind? (i eat and sleep okay, no drugs or alcohol) Is anyone else experiencing it?