I was open to sex with my low libido wife, but wouldn't you know it...
Venting here, but let's read your advice.
I don't know why, but I was suddenly open to the idea of resetting our Drought Timer this week. We are currently sitting at 105 days with no offers from my low libido wife (LLW) in about seven-weeks. I was paying attention to the calendar and LLW and I were aligning on a WFH Friday (without kids at home, she doesn't work Fridays) for the first time in several weeks. I was throwing out bids during the week and while she was not receptive/communicative, when is she ever?
I went to the trouble of shaving/grooming top and bottom and pulling together all the various accoutrements (condom, lube, toys), ready to go. I haven't watched porn or masturbated in a while and even with how busy LLW always says she is, I was really, REALLY expecting something to happen today.
Going into the bathroom this morning and seeing traces of blood in the toilet was a gut punch. I actually started to get teary. Seeing a pair of period pants in the sink later confirmed things.
One-hundred-and-five days plus another 10 or so (our usual period-pause) and we are getting close to four months without any meaningful physical intimacy.
I'm putting on a brave face, but I'm furious and utterly crushed. It was all a covert contract, I know that, and it's not my wife's fault when she gets her period, but it's just another nail in the coffin of our dead bedroom.
FML.