u/mountain_goat_32

Just upset again I cant enlist because wth

I dont think I submitted priority but at this point am I not getting a decision😭

Applied to Brown UPenn JHU Emory Harvard

Only care about Brown and UPenn but common app was free for me

Already transferred once because this administration banned me out of rotc for being trans. 3.0 engineering gpa from freshman year.

3.8 flat at current school, still engineering.

Switched careers from military to medicine, specifically goal of specializing in infectious diseases to work with patients at risk of HIV and providing gender affirming care.

Currently premed. Interned at a pharma startup making glp-1 related tech, interned at a nonprofit law firm litigating the trans military ban case, interned at harvard teaching hospital endo dept working with adolescent gender clinic, volunteered at VA Hospital, summer fellow for harvard-hosted program on infectious diseases, specifically HIV. Nationalist for weightlifting. Had work study job for civil engineering dept's senior capstone lab space managing 3d printers and hosting local high school for educational events.

Wrote about how I want to continue through junior/senior year doing infectious disease research but my current school doesn't have any affiliated faculty doing that work but Brown does and Emory does.

Applied from engineering as public health. Also wrote a little about how that better reflects my new career aspirations.

Main issue is gpa, think I went test optional

Im matched very well at my current school for fin aid (essentially a full ride) and it's in a very liberal location. I am queer and don't know if Vanderbilt at this point is even worth considering.

My mother who doesn't live with me is terrible with computers and still hasnt been able to complete the last item on my fin aid checklist and I think I might withdraw.

Im an east asian 20yo ftm. My parents are very traditionalist but because I asked for boy clothes and short hair from a very young age theyve accepted my masculine presentation. They dont know I was on and off T the last 2 years for about 6 total months. My voice went down a bit but not a crazy amount.

When I visit my parents in Korea (I'm a domestic student in college), I always pass as male. My parents are busy correcting everyone from strangers to distant relatives.

The biggest inconvenience though is when shopping for clothes, or doing anything that concerns fashion, like getting a haircut. I can't present female for the life of me, but maybe if I just fully transition now I'll have less of that "we need clothes for a masc woman" situation that my parents are always so uncomfortable about, and that "dont make her look too masculine" conversation at the salon?

Ive been out for years but my parents havent done any research on what transitioning looks like, and I have a bit of hope that if I transition they may not notice, since I already pass so well. But things like top surgery maybe would help make me look less out of place in mostly male clothing.

Any advice would be appreciated. I'm basically not sure if although my parents are transphobic/not accepting, they unknowingly would prefer a transitioned child over one in limbo.