u/miifanatic_1788

you know that meme that’s says “the atheism leaving my body the second I feel the plane shake”? yea i basically experienced something like that first hand.

so 2 years ago my home got hit a hurricane and during that time was so scared shitless to the point of having mental breakdowns that my home would get destroyed that I started praying, this was the first time in so long that I had prayed to god to protect my home,

fortunately nothing too severe happened that day and I came out of it physically fine, however mentally, as much as I was grateful to still be alive and well, hearing about the many many many stories of people losing their homes, loved ones, etc made me disturbed, not only did I feel so much hurt for these people but also the fact that god didn’t protect them, if god is all powerful and loving why was only my area spared from most of the damage?

that was the point where I started waking up but was unsure about everything else bc at the time I didn’t have any proof of the Bible being a fairytale, at least not until a few months later when I started binge watching a lot of atheist content that made me finally snap out of it.

i swear to god i’m convinced that religion people need there to be constant chaos and suffering for people to have faith, they dont actually want the the world to be like the garden of Eden where everything’s perfect, they need to have enemies to constantly punish bc that’s all they get off on.

I’m trying to log back into my account by resetting my password but they’re not giving me the code

im doing a mouth animation and one thing I’m struggling with is the 2 closed mouths keep clipping into each other on 2 of the mouth parameters, someone suggested that I lower the opacity on the specific key frames but it didn’t work.

obviously I didn’t answer the door but I was looking thru the peep hole and just got this sense of pity and sadness for the 2 people, I can’t imagine having to go door to door asking people if they’d wanna join my church only for most of the answers to either be no or just no response at all, theres so many things these people could be doing with their lives yet they’re made to spend hours going to strangers doors to convert them, especially how the religion itself is pretty widely despised by both thiests and atheists alike (justifiably so) I feel so terrible for anyone and everyone who’s grown up being a JW,

ik Christianity, Catholicism, and Mormonism are just as harmful but idk, something about JWs just rubs me the wrong way that other religions wish they could do.

its been years since I last read the bible so you can correct me on what I’m about to say but didn’t god say that no human knows when it’ll start? they’ve started countless of wars with the Middle East yet god STILL hasn’t come, what makes them think starting even more wars will get the ball rolling, why does he even need there to be war for him to come in the first place? also if society is supposedly falling apart why hasn’t god come already to “save” us? why is god putting us thru this mess when he has the power to fix it all

ik this is kind of a stupid since most people tend to shrug it off, for me it’s literal hell on earth, I’ve always hated getting the cold, the constant discomfort and pain that I feel just drives me crazy, I remember vividly having multiple meltdowns as a kid bc the pain was just that bad, idk if it’s bc of my sensory issues relating to my autism but its both physically and mentally tortuous for me, not to mention its so hard for me to sleep bc its hard for me to breathe whilst laying down so i end up sleeping sitting up, as I’ve gotten older it’s been getting worse and worse for me, it’s so hard for me to even just rest bc the pain is that intense, idk if i have any cold medicine on me nor can i afford it, i just have to sit with it for god knows how long.

fyi if you don’t know who Dark!atter2525 is hes an atheist YouTuber who primarily covers the dangers of religion and politics

anyways I was listening to music in my brothers car thru his phone (the music was being played inside the car to be specific) when I noticed a notification he got from DarkMatter2525, I said “oh you watch him?” and he said “yea he’s pretty good” we didn’t talk about it further but it made me feel happy to see that not only does he watch a creator that I also like but also a creator whos shares my personal views,

even though I kinda already knew that my brother wasn’t as pearl clutchingly uptight as our parents considering the type of music he listens to (metal) aswell as the jokes he tells (and tolerates) it still made me happy to see that my assumptions about him were confirmed,

honestly all of my siblings, aswell as alot of my cousins are really accepting, yea they’ve never expressed their true feelings about religion to me, but i still have respect for them for not being *completely* brainwashed by their (and our) parents.

I really hope that I can continue seeing them so that I can further educate them on the real world and how religion has destroyed a lot of things for them, mostly my younger cousins since they’re still kids who are pretty impressionable.

whenever I have a problem with something I usually go into the art discord server that I’m in or to r/arthelp on Reddit to receive feedback but it takes so goddamn long for at least one person to respond, I understand timezones exist and that people are busy and all, I’m not blaming anyone in particular, but man is it frusterating having wait hours if not days to get a response, hell sometimes I pratically get no response at all simply bc there isn’t that many people online, again i understand that people are busy or don’t feel like being online aswell as timezones, I’m just venting out my frustration.