u/m_rain_bow

I have been into this destructive behavior trying to numb them feelings, but nothing helps, I tried talking to others and getting my life back, you know trying to move on but I get sick because I will find me thinking about you, I tried but I know m not trying enough because I know me once I decide to actually move on I will and you know what that means, it means losing you completely, I don’t t want that, I love you so much, I will give everything just to get one hug from you, just to sit next to you, just for five minutes, just to look at you and smell you, it hurts soo much to think that you talking to others, and I know you have the right to do so, you re single, but to think you smiling and touching another girl, to think that another girl get to sit next to you, and hear you and look into your pretty eyes it s sickening me, i swear I would rather go blind than see you with her, I am tired of waking up with swollen eyes but I can t control my tears, loving you and not having you really hurts, btw I still have your contact saved as MyHooman even tho it s been a year now, I haven t seen you in a year, omg this is suffocating, btw I deleted my social media (whatsapp, linkedin) I don t see the use of them if we are not talking