u/lfIwereaclownfish

Hello, I hope this post is appropriate.

I'll just start at the beginning. Back in December I went in for a physical. During the abdominal exam the doctor found a sensitive area right where my right ovary and appendix would be. She did all the things to test if it was my appendix or possibly kidneys. Nothing.

So she started asking about different symptoms I might be having. I couldn't really answer most of the questions because I'm always so dang busy and exhausted all the time. She looked kinda freaked out and wanted to do a CT. I fobbed her off and said it's probably a cyst and will pass.

She told me if it persists or gets worse to call her. Well about three months later the pain is still there. When I contacted the doctor I thought it had only been a month. I was palpitating the area regularly, waiting for my cycle to pass and see if the pain subsided.

It didn't. It actually got to the point where if I did palpitate the area, it would ache all day. It's easily identified as the ovary now, I've had so many cysts in the past. And a history of adenomyosis that resulted in a hysterectomy. It was not optional.

Now 3.5 months later the pain is to the point where I feel it all day and if for some reason I have gas, the pain is intense. I have a CT scan scheduled in a few days, but if it gets any worse I'll just go to hospital.

I'm kinda scared because I have a lot of different symptoms and I keep looking for any condition or combo of conditions could cause this. So my questions are 3.

1. Has anyone here had a similar experience?
2. Does anyone have any theories or suggestions for what else it could be?
3. Would it be irresponsible to wait 7 days for the CT vs going to the hospital now?

Here is a list of my symptoms:

- Pain

- Chronic fatigue

- Abnormality in the white blood cells, not leukocyts

- Daily nausea, especially in the morning.

- Severe hormonal fluctuations. It's almost like what I felt like after I've given birth, but more intense and longer lasting

- Crazy acne

- It's very easy for me to feel over full and bloated

- As a consequence I've been eating less because I don't have time for lots of small meals but I haven't lost any weight.

- Bowel issues. I'm constipated if I do nothing. Benefiber causes diarrhea. I've cut back heavily on coffee consumption for the same reason. Just one 12oz cup will send me to the bathroom through out the day.

I'm sorry for the length of the post. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to reply or upvote.

I looked for but couldn't find a thread where people share their personaly observed types of narcissists. I think it would be helpful to recognize the array of possible narcs you may encounter in the wild, so as to better recognize their (sometimes subtle) red flags.

For example: It took me a really long time to recognize that my mom was a narc. I just assumed narcs couldn't be insecure becausethey love themselves above all else, therefore she's not a narc. I may have been more likely to recognize the narc flags my husband was waving if I'd been equipped with this knowledge.

So I'll start by throwing "Insecure Narcissist" out there. I would say this type is exemplified by someone who is a narc but has a critical self image (low self-esteem, low self-worth, zero self-love). May hate being alone with themselves, because then there's no distractions from their (negative) inner script. To be alone with oneself is to recognize oneself. They require constant attention, compliments, and to be the center of attention. They need outside stimulus in order to comfortably maintain their arrested development. They fish for compliments by deliberately saying negative, disparaging things about themselves. They dislike and disparage anyone in their peer-group that may outshine them in some perceived way. They make declarations about their likes and interests because that's what they perceive as popular, sophisticated, or admirable. I would guess that codependency is rampant in this type. This is longer than intended, my apologies.