u/legoblocks227

Lowkey thought about ending my life for like a year because of how extremely lonely I am. In all aspects of life haha but I’m graduating on Friday!! With my masters :) very proud of myself. It reminds me of how my dad told me I wasn’t good enough for college and that I’d drop out and not be successful. WELL first in the family to get a masters! And get to apply to doctoral programs soon as well.

Anyways good luck to everyone this semester!

I’m done with dating.. I’ve never had a bf lol I’m 26. I want to have a family.. get married. But it seems like no one wants that with me. I’m done with the dating apps. Done with the casual dates or casual hookups. Done with situationships. Done with the mixed signals, done with being friends first. Done with meeting through mutuals, clubs, school events, a bar, etc. I’m done lol. I’m especially done with the tarot readings because they’re always halfway true or just lies and scams. I’m done praying for it as well… I’m at a stage now where I don’t care anymore. Truly. No one will ever like me back. No reciprocity to be experienced. No one will take me serious. No will give me the love I so crave… I’m just going to be alone haha. And I have to learn to be okay with that.

Do yall think it’s weird If a sneaky link asks you if you’re going to hook up with other guys over the summer? Cause it was kinda awkward when he asked

This will sound pathetic. But I’ve been mourning a life I never had. I bought children’s clothes. Mainly baby clothes. Put them in a box and under my bed. Recently my dating life has been terrible. I’ve never had a bf, I never had a mutual crush. My last relationship wasn’t an actual one according to him and he would hit me, emotionally abuse me and SA me. So… I’m used to not being loved romantically. Idk what’s been happening but lately I’ve been mourning wanting a family. Wanting children. I feel like it’s not going to happen. Because of it I started buying baby clothes when I get my check and put it under my bed. I know it’s weird and it’s dumb but it’s how I cope with the harsh reality my life didn’t turn out the way I pray it will.. idk what’s wrong with me.