Am I pretty? Is it too late for me?
For reference, I still don't know who I am. I love being a man, but lately I have wanted to go back to being a woman as well. I have a lot of hang-ups about stopping T, because I was a really ugly woman. T (in my opinion) made me much more attractive. I don't want my face to go back to what it was before T, (it was pudgy and round) and my chest still makes me highly uncomfortable. Periods too, I don't like 'em. ( I have not had any surgeries, but if I did stop T, getting top surgery would be even more of a high priority, as I assume the shrinkage I have experienced would regrow rather quickly.)
However, there is some small yearning in me that craves that womanhood again.
I am also terribly distraught about my hairline. I feel I couldn't pass with such a horrid thing on my head. Hence the scarfe and bangs. I know some lucky people regrow their hair on their temples, but I doubt that will be me. What are the chances? I have heard a lot of people saying that their hair definitely grows back. and others say the loss is permanent. especially on the temples. Do any of you FTMTF or FTMTX folks have anecdotal stories of this? I would love a little hope for myself to convince myself that I am not a lost cause.
I might delete this because I am scared of having my face on here, but I would love some advice or comments. Thank you
(Extra info that doesn't really matter.) I don't think I will ever not experience dysphoria. In either direction. At this point it's more of which direction do I want my dysphoria to go in