Low self-esteem. How did you improve yours?
I want to be completely honest: it's not because of my ex that I have low self-esteem, it's my parents' fault. They always told me I was a stupid child and couldn't do things right.
When I met my ex, I opened up to him because I thought he was a good person. And he was, in the first months, before showing his true nature. Then he started to act exactly like my parents and he too called me dumb and made fun of me for my "stupidity".
(The relationship was abusive in many ways, but the thing that really hurt me was that he thought I was the dumbest chick he ever met).
But this really re-opened an old scar. In the last few months I started being obsessed with taking IQ tests to figure if I was mentally slow or not. Asked to ChatGPT to evaluate me, etcetera.
My self-esteem is oscillating greatly nowadays. I don't know how to get out of this loop. Any thoughts or advice?