u/idontfuckingcarebaby

I’m making a variety summer playlist and I want to have some pop on there, problem is I don’t listen to it much. I am a tiny bit familiar with Chapel Roan and Sabrina Carpenter, and I have added the following songs from them : Good Luck, Babe! , Pink Pony Club , HOT TO GO! , Feminiomenon , Manchild , and Espresso. I’m looking for songs that are similar to these I like the vibes. I’m also not super familiar with either of them so if there’s some deep cuts you think I might like feel free to share. Thanks!

So I’ve been seeing this guy for 3 months now, we kept things casual at first (fwb) but then started dating a month ago and a half ago. I was always a little obsessive over him, just wanting to spend a lot of time with him, the first few weeks I practically asked him to come over every day. The past two weeks though, I feel like I’m going crazy. He’s all I can think about, I’m struggling to pay attention to anything because I’m just thinking about him, I just want to be with him all of the time. This does follow us confessing that we love each other and deciding to move in together. Idk I’m just worried about it and honestly it’s pissing me off. I’ve always gotten a little obsessed with new partners but it’s usually at the very beginning and not this bad. Idk what’s going on with me I’ve never been this way over someone before. Should I be concerned? He’s also the first partner to actually treat me well like he’s so good and sweet to me, so I figure that has something to do with it. Idk maybe I’m just like addicted to the dopamine.

I’m very confused about gender identity. I don’t like putting labels on my gender, because I don’t really feel like I have one, I just sort of am who I am, I’m just a person who has the appearance that I do and nothing about me is tied to a gender identity. I’ve known this about myself for a while, and I understand that it technically makes me non-binary, specifically agender, but I still don’t like to use those labels, like I just want nothing to do with gender identity I don’t want it to be in the equation.

Then sometimes I think, does that actually make me non-binary though, or does everyone feel this way? Like does anyone actually feel like a man or a woman? I only went into depth about these feelings with one person and they said they feel the same way I do, but they know they’re a man, so maybe I am just a woman and it’s normal to feel this way about gender. Idk, I’m confused.

Ultimately I don’t think it matters too much because I’m comfortable in who I am and how I present, sure I would prefer people to not perceive me as a woman but it also doesn’t bother me if they do, so I don’t see a huge need to really figure this out, as long as I’m comfortable and feel like I can be myself then that’s what matters to me, but idk I was just curious since I was thinking about this tonight.