u/gotchafaint

I realize this is a common problem but it's popping up for me more lately: I happen to have a lot of experience in a new project rolling out. I state my experience as the foundation for some suggestions and feedback. Everything gets ignored and then everyone (male) learns the hard way what could have been prevented by employing my few suggestions. Like I literally said those exact things you blew off.

I'm neither mousy nor obnoxious, i don't think it's my personality. I could be pushier I suppose but that's not my nature.

Anyway, I'm more struck by how resigned to it I am now than anything. Like, oh of course that just happened, it always does. I'm largely respected and treated well but I don't think they even realize they're doing it.

I'm really captivated by how much more advanced the technology is there. That is the main thing I want to go explore (although i'm sure there is tons to explore outside of that). I'm reasonably fit and healthy but I do have an old injury that makes walking painful after a while. I can't have gluten. I'm a bit daunted by traveling alone there. I'm a budget traveler but do need to sleep well at night so prioritize that. Also I'm a 6' tall blonde woman and not huge but a bit chunky. I'm going to look like a giant there and am concerned about being gawked at. Curious if anyone has traveled there, particularly if you have gone alone. I'd like to hear about your experience.

I need to get this off my chest somewhere. On vacation with my daughter and her friend. They were gone for the day and I ate some chocolate in the fridge that turned out to be a super potent batch of THC and psilocybin. I have a low tolerance for THC -2.5mg in a gummy is my limit before bed. Imagine eating 100mg. And then a powerful mushroom dose kicks in.

I have experience with psychedelics but not while OD’d on cannabis. I was so desperate and miserable, panicking because I felt like I was dying, paralyzed- like I was stuck after sitting up on the edge of the bed to throw up and couldn’t move for hours. Just profound wave after wave of nausea, panic, and hallucinations for 7 hours. I was literally begging for mercy. Also occasional bouts of rage that there was no label or warning on this chocolate.

Came close to calling 911 a few times but honestly couldn’t have managed anyway. Curious if anyone has had a similar experience and am I justified in feeling traumatized today.