lost my dad at 18- fell into a victim mindset. any advice?
not where i want to be- 21f.
family gone, friends and relationships non existent. i crave life, i crave travel, parties, young love, experience, being dumb and hot. but i have stayed stagnent since i was 18. been doing the same thing every day, which is a whole lotta nothing. i smoke weed, sometimes cook and workout but i dont see people, i dont date, i just sit around at home, do schoolwork, and do everything by myself.
fucked my life over by changing universities after he passed. i deeply regret that decision.
I barely excel at the things I do because I waste my potential. I feel like a loser on reddit trying to ask strangers for advice but this seems like the only source of connection I have right now.
i have no goals, and i see no future for myself. feeling like i watch days go by infront of me. feels like im apart of my life and not in charge of it. i try not to let my past personal tragedies define me. how do i snap out of depression and a victim mindset.