u/expiredhandlotion

Maybe I'm exhausted? I don't care that I'm graduating. I'm just tired and burned out. It's in early June. My cousin is also graduating around the same time, and for two months she's been planning her graduation party. Am I supposed to be happy that I'm graduating? I struggled so hard and lived in the tutoring center, crying every day. I guess I should be proud of myself when I walk across that stage, knowing how I even got here. How did I even graduate when I can't even order food? There's a lot to do. I still don't have my cap and gown. Ugh. I don't know what's even happening.

I struggle to do everything. School is so hard for me. Everything is so hard for me. Functioning is so hard for me. I've been feeling bad about myself lately, like I'm less than and dumb. I'm graduating with a 3.994 GPA. Instead, I'm mad that it's not a 4.0 anymore. For weeks, I was crying when I got a B+ in Chemistry. I don't even know if my professor graded my fourth exam. I was exhausted and anemic, so I never reached out. I threw myself into bed for two weeks. He never told me what grade I got for fourth or fifth. How do I actually know if he graded it or not? Anyways that's how I have a 3.994.

Why am I not happy that I'm graduating? Maybe if I dress up and look hot, it will help, and if I show off my assets. Whatever. I don't care. I'm trying to. Dressing up always helps me feel better because I like looking better than everyone. I feel like I never did well enough.

I feel like I'm unintelligent. I keep forgetting everything. I'm almost 20 how will I handle my life? What I mean is how am I supposed to function as an adult? I'm trying my best. I really am. I keep forgetting everything. I feel like crying.

I feel terrible at eveything. The only thing I'm good at doing is dressing up and acting like a statue. That's what happens everytime I leave my house. The situation is bad. Why do I feel like it's getting worse is it because I'm getting older. Everything is a mess. I can't do anything. I feel like I'm failing at everything.

I can't function at all. I feel like I'm gonna explode. Omg. I can't do anything. I feel like a baby. I struggle with everything. I'm gonna sleep. Or try to. Or cry then sleep.

I know I shouldn't be thinking like this, but I still find myself doing so. I always feel inferior and less than other women due to my challenges. Regardless of what I tell myself, I still find myself falling into the same thought process, failing to see my achievements. If I'm ever in a relationship I feel like I'll just burden the other person with my issues. And fail as a partner. I'll be annoying and dumb.

If I'm ever a mother I'll probably fail at that too. What if I forget my baby in the car on accident? Or at the store? Or in the living room? What if I forget that I had a baby all together. What if I leave the stove on? Babysitting my one year old nephew made me realize how forgetful I really am. I was chatting with his older fourteen year old brother when I forgot the stove was on. A huge boiling pot of meat.

The one year old wobbled into the kitchen and was about to dumb the boiling pot onto himself. But his older brother stopped him. You see if he wasn't there then the baby would've gotten hurt. All because I got distracted by our conversation. I don't know what this post is. I just feel like I'm not good at anything. I feel worthless, slow, and dumb. I'm just a dumb, demented, whore. Dumb. I can't even do basic things. I can't even drive in a straight line. Poop. It's one of those days. I hate everything abouf myself. I'm dumb everyone knows im hoe even my sisters

I recently finished an intense 14 day h pylori treatment. I'm on day 3 post-treatment. During the last few days of the medication, I started feeling weird and off. I felt like everything was zooming out or floaty, and I was going to suddenly die or faint. This sensation has not subsided. I feel afraid that I will suddenly die or something terrible will happen. What's with this weird floaty feeling in my head? Anytime I get anxiety, I get this weird floaty sensation like everything is zooming out? Does this happen to anyone else?

I'm afraid of a great catastrophe taking place. I only started feeling like this after the antibiotics. (omeprazole, amoxicillin, and rifabutin) I did not feel any of this before the treatment. It's hard to focus. My heart keeps pounding.

I finished this specific 14-day treatment for h pylori and was fine prior to the treatment. After the treatment (I'm on day 3 post), I've been feeling weird, floaty/off, with stomach discomfort caused by anxiety of something catastrophic happening. I feel better right now after eating food, but I still don't 100% feel like myself. I did not experience this before the medication. It only started in the last 4 days of treatment. I don't know if it's anxiety, but it feels like everything is zooming out of my mind, my heart starts pounding, my stomach hurts, and I'm scared something bad is going to happen. I don't tell anybody how I feel because I'm embarrassed.

This is all a new feeling. Kinda like brain foggy. Will this go away? I felt better after doing yoga last night but still felt weird and panicky.

I'm just curious. Please share your experience. Sometimes my ears ring, other times it sounds like a heartbeat. Some days it sounds like woooooo whoosh.

Please share your experience with one-sided tinnitus.

Okay, so ever since I started my weird medication, it's giving me anxiety that I'm dying. If I stub my toe, I'll think I'm dying. If my finger hurts I'm dying. If my head hurts, I'm dying. I'm scared to die.

I've suffered from one-sided tinnitus in my left ear for about two years. Lately, I've been getting one-sided headaches and deep inner pain in my tinnitus ear. Does anyone else experience this? Is it normal with tinnitus to get headaches and ear pain? I don't know what's causing mine. It's a constant 24/7 ringing. Can anyone else relate? Please comfort me and tell me that I'm not dying of brain problems.

I also have adhd and im scared that I don't actually have adhd and that my head hurts because I got brain problems from the tinnitus and I need a scan, and I feel like I have numbness in my left side, but I'm not sure if it's just anxiety. I've also been extremely stressed lately. Just answer my question, does anyone else feel ear pains and headaches with one-sided tinnitus? My worst fear lately is that I don't actually have adhd and I'm dying of dementia at 19 and will forget everything because my head hurts and I have tinnitus so I'm losing all my memories.

I often sit down and compare myself to other "normal" girls every chance I get. The way I struggle to do almost everything. The way I have to work significantly harder just to function. I feel like I'm lacking something critical that most people seemingly have, even though I know I shouldn't feel like that.

I'm exhausted all the time, constantly thinking about things not to do or say, what faces to make, or when to laugh. What's the point of even being in college? Do you see the way I'm struggling? I feel like there's never a break. Every day after my chemistry class, I would go to the bathroom and cry. Then one day, during the laboratory, I had to step out because the tears were about to fall. I looked around the classroom, and every single person in the class could do it except me. I'm not lying. It was an awful feeling. My professor saw me struggling and tried to help, but no matter how many times he explained the steps, I kept doing it wrong again and again. I even watched the video instructions the day before several times, and I still couldn't figure it out. That's something I'm never going to forget. After that, I suddenly stood up and rushed to the bathroom with eyeliner and tears running down my face. That was in the past. I somehow passed the class with a B+ after receiving hours of tutoring.

Every lecture feels like asodfjhgdsjoiaoskcnv that's all I hear or takeaway. Imagine getting called on in class like that. The utter humiliation. Especially last semester, it never happened that much before. Each semester, more and more stress builds up. I can no longer perform or function in life anymore. Everything is a struggle. I feel like I'm less than. How can I not? I'm trying my hardest. It's one of those days. Waaaaaaa. I know not everything I'm saying is factual; it's mostly driven by sadness.

I just finished my treatment for helicopter pylori (I like calling it that 🙂) yesterday. My primary doctor refused to prescribe me the treatment that includes bismuth, so she made me go to the GI, and they prescribed me the refbutin one.

The last few days were so awful. I woke up at 5am and felt feverish, chills, pain, etc. I also had a severe headache and could barely even lift my head. As well as some nausea. It was awful. I kept pooping so much, and had orange/pink pee.

Yesterday was my last day, and I dumped it all in the trash. Ever since I started that medication, I've been feeling anxious, like something catastrophic will happen. I don't feel like this often, only when I started taking that medication. I'm still nauseous today, but I figured that the side effects take some time to go away. Lately, I've been having difficulties sleeping at night and feel fear of randomly dying. My heart keeps pounding, and I feel anxious. Is this a side effect of this medication? Did anyone else experience these? I still have an awful headache, and feel severely hungry no matter how much I eat. What should I do I'm scared I'm gonna die or something terrible will happen. I feel like crying. I feel weird. Brain fog. I'm dying?? But I'm not actually dying I just feel like that in my head. I don't want to die. I felt better before the treatment. I don't feel like myself. My sister's engagement party is in three weeks. I feel weird like a zombie. I need to feel better. What do I do? Why do I feel weird??? my head..

Almost every week I either break something or get hurt, whether it’s me bumping into a wall, hitting my leg on a surface, or slamming into the edge of the kitchen counter. I never fail to get hurt. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

The other day, when my sister and I were chatting in her room, I was sitting on her bed. She went to the bathroom. I got up, or tried to, and fell off her entire bed. Nobody saw. I hit my legs on her dresser, and it hurt for days. This was less than a week ago.

Yesterday, after I got home from a long day, it was getting kind of chilly in my room. There’s a small space between my bed and the window because the wall has a square opening. Anyway, as I was attempting to close the window, I fell into that space, which I call “the hole.” I screamed as my body hit the wall. I grabbed onto the windowsill to make sure I didn’t hit my head, but the damage was already done.

I stood up with shaky, bruised arms and legs. I tried getting out of that area below my bed and tried to lie down. I spent the entire night in pain. I woke up the next day to see both my legs and arms covered in bruises. I could barely walk now.

What’s next? Am I cursed? I also cracked my mother's brand-new phone.

It's tomorrow with a psychiatrist. Is there no better or worse or right or wrong?? Should I have seen a psychologist instead of a psychiatrist? What do you think? I need support, who is best? Or is a psychiatrist still okay? I got a psychiatrist because it's sooner.

This is my first time treating H pylori. I've heard this is typically not a first-line treatment. My GI prescribed it. I've been on it for a few days and feel fine. Did anyone else get prescribed this for a first time?