u/coolkid228768977

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My life is pretty tough: My mom abuses me such as getting knives thrown at me, being chased with a lighter, and getting screams at me when she doesn't like the way my voice or doesn't get her way. My day usually goes like this

Wake up, get yelled at, threatened, eat lunch, play minecraft, get yelled at for having too much screens (I'm only allowed minecraft, she only lets me have 2 hours of screens), get yelled at for something she was mad at me for from 2 years ago, eat dinner, (now like 7pm), at this hour she gets super drunk, sometimes she won't drink and she will still act drunk, tries to lure me into the car (lol why the fuck would I do that after she's drunk), now 8pm, watch TV upstairs, gets mad at me for not being downstairs watching the most bullshit shows with her, go cry for a bit, maybe take a walk, get in trouble for saying sorry at least 30 times, now like 9-9:30pm, head off to go into bed, she does the same, then I sneak out and sometimes will grab a knife, only like twice a week ill do this, cut myself once or twice, (I don't really have too many scars / cuts), doomscroll, now around midnight, wash the knife off in my room using magic eraser (this works since the knife is a weird material, My mom won't buy me razors or let me yet, also yes I do need them, so my dad will let me use his under supervision), Sneek back downstairs to put the knife back, then head to sleep. I mean, is this a reason to cut or am overeating.

Is this a reason to cut????? My dad here isn't the issue, it's my mom. Ever since age 3 I've been getting screamed at for things like how I straight up exist. She is also an alcoholic, but she only gets to the "Out of her mind drunk" after 4pm or so, and that's when she'll get pissed at every slight annoyance, and will scream at me & my dad non stop, flip people off, threaten to take the next flight out (she'll get to the point were she will pack her bags just to scare me), throw shit at me, and the worst thing is when she isn't drunk, she will pick fights with my dad (who is super kind), which is hard to have happen. Usually this he'll will end at 10pm, after she finishes ranting on how "she should've been a better mother" which come on how would I even love someone who says that every single day?!? During these hours ill be in the basement trying to hind until she finds me, then ill get yelled at then some nights go to my room and Cut when she's gone to sleep. She also sometimes says I am such a terrible boy, and I should go fck myself. Can anyone else help me out or can relate?

PLEASE COMMENT I NEED ADVICE Is this a reason to cut????? My dad here isn't the issue, it's my mom. Ever since age 3 I've been getting screamed at for things like how I straight up exist. She is also an alcoholic, but she only gets to the "Out of her mind drunk" after 4pm or so, and that's when she'll get pissed at every slight annoyance, and will scream at me & my dad non stop, flip people off, threaten to take the next flight out (she'll get to the point were she will pack her bags just to scare me), throw shit at me, and the worst thing is when she isn't drunk, she will pick fights with my dad (who is super kind), which is hard to have happen. Usually this he'll will end at 10pm, after she finishes ranting on how "she should've been a better mother" which come on how would I even love someone who says that every single day?!? During these hours ill be in the basement trying to hind until she finds me, then ill get yelled at then some nights go to my room and Cut when she's gone to sleep. She also sometimes says I am such a terrible boy, and I should go fck myself. Can anyone else help me out or can relate?

Is this a reason to cut????? My dad here isn't the issue, it's my mom. Ever since age 3 I've been getting screamed at for things like how I straight up exist. She is also an alcoholic, but she only gets to the "Out of her mind drunk" after 4pm or so, and that's when she'll get pissed at every slight annoyance, and will scream at me & my dad non stop, flip people off, threaten to take the next flight out (she'll get to the point were she will pack her bags just to scare me), throw shit at me, and the worst thing is when she isn't drunk, she will pick fights with my dad (who is super kind), which is hard to have happen. Usually this he'll will end at 10pm, after she finishes ranting on how "she should've been a better mother" which come on how would I even love someone who says that every single day?!? During these hours ill be in the basement trying to hind until she finds me, then ill get yelled at then some nights go to my room and Cut when she's gone to sleep. She also sometimes says I am such a terrible boy, and I should go fck myself. Can anyone else help me out or can relate?