What are your weird socially unacceptable stims?
(Marked as NSFW because people may not be comfortable reading this but there is nothing sexual)
I was noticing today how my breasts are a big source of sensory comfort for me - they're big, soft and saggy so I have a great time just grabbing and squishing them, bouncing them and playing with them like they're stress balls, fidget toys, or even hand warmers. I realise how much I unconsciously do this. Only when I'm alone of course, but family members have caught me doing that before (I do it over or under my tees or tops, not naked) and thought me weird hahaha
I was depressed about my saggy breasts that were always naturally low but become even more droopy from a lot of weight gain as a result of antidepressant side effect. Thinking about how they're likely to deflate as I lose weight, I looked into surgical breast lift options but realising today how much of a comfort and joy they are for me, just purely in terms of sensory stims, I would be really crushed to lose sensation in them, which is a big possible side effect of getting surgery.
Anyway, what are your weird stims?