u/basically_dead_now

I'm at school, and I've been crying a lot since I got here (around 2 hours ago) because I'm scared to go home. I've done that a lot, crying at school because I'm so scared to go home. My abusive sister scares me a lot. She used to be physically abusive, but now it's verbal, and I'm still really scared of her. I know I don't go home for around 6 hours or so, but I still cry because I'm really scared. I hate being around her, even looking at her reminds me of what she put me through. I always feel scared that she'll scream at me again, and I never know what'll cause it. Last time, she started screaming at me because I sat in the seat she wanted to sit in, and I'm scared of messing up again. I'm really scared. At this point, my cheeks sting from how much I've been crying since I got here. Sorry for this stupid rant, I'm just really going through it

One of my miis leveled up in happiness, so I decided to give him a breakdancing dvd. Now, he breakdances a lot, and will sometimes go from breakdancing in his room (he lives in a house with other miis) to then breakdancing in the living room. And he ended up saying "I'm exhausted, wish I knew why," only to start breakdancing. I think he has a problem

I had therapy yesterday, and I opened up to my therapist about my gender dysphoria, and when I talked about how I wanted top surgery, she started telling me things like "you'll still look like a girl" and "your face looks very feminine." It made me very upset at the moment, and maybe even angry, and when I started expressing how it made me feel, she didn't think to stop. She just kept going on about how I'll never look masculine, and I'm still really upset about it. I don't know why she did it, and I don't know why she kept saying it when I was obviously very uncomfortable and upset. I'm still kind of angry about it, and it makes me upset that she thinks I'll always look like a girl, even if I do get top surgery. Why did she think it's a good idea to say that to me???

I've been thinking about this for a while today. Would George Orwell be fit for having a bsd character inspired by him? Since the books he is known for are about politics and criticizing the state of the world and governments at the time of him writing them, like 1984 and animal farm, I think it'd be neat to include him, but I don't know how Asagiri would be able to give that character an ability. But I think it'd be a neat idea anyway. If he never becomes canon to the story, I guess anyone who has ocs can use my idea to make him a character lol

I was born a girl, and I really hate that. I don't think I'm transgender, but I really don't like being a girl, and I always feel upset and sad whenever someone calls me a girl/woman. I hate it, and I don't feel like there are any good things about being a woman. I hate being born a girl, and I really do wish I was born a boy I genuinely hate being a girl and looking as feminine as I do (especially with my chest, it's not small enough to hide, even when I wear a binder.) Sometimes, I even feel angry when I think too much about the fact that I'm not a guy. It makes me want to cry sometimes, and I just hate it. Sorry for this stupid rant, I just wanted to get this off of my chest, since I don't have anyone to talk to about this in real life. I do really want top surgery, but I haven't been evaluated for gender dysphoria yet, and I'm very impatient about it. I want it as soon as possible, I'm tired of having to wait. I just feel embarrassed at the thought of correcting someone when they call me a girl, since I feel like a lot of people either don't understand, or they'll hate me for it (because a lot of people hate people who identify as something other than the sex they were born as)

I know it's a stereotype for dads to be loud, but in my experience with my dad, it's completely true. He is the loudest snorer ever, and I hate having to sleep in hotels/motels with him because I often wake up throughout the night, so if I'm in the same room as him at night, I cannot go back to sleep because of how loud he is. Everyone else in my house sleeps quietly, it's only my dad who does that. Not only that, but he has the loudest and most dramatic sneeze I've ever heard. Do men just immediately become one of the loudest people ever once they become a father?

Edit: he also talks so loudly that my mom often has to tell him to be quieter

I've been trying to find outfits that are inspired by Dazai and his aesthetic, but whenever I try to look anything up, all I find are cosplays instead of outfits that are inspired by him. Can anyone send me pictures of stuff like that? Thank you to anyone who can help!

I don't know if this would be considered gender dysphoria, but I really hate being born a girl, and I hate how I clearly look like a girl. No one ever mistakes me for a guy or asks me if I'm a guy or girl because they genuinely can't tell, and I really fucking hate being called a girl. My chest is really big, and it makes me so fucking miserable. I am so desperate for top surgery that I've been considering performing it on myself with whatever I have, but I know that's a super dumb idea. But I'm just so miserable looking the way I do and I hate how my clothes look on me. I wear a binder every single day, and I wear the smallest size that the shop had, but you can still very clearly see that I have boobs because they're big. It makes me so, so miserable, and I would do anything for top surgery, and I mean it! I'm jealous of people who have flat chests, and I always wish that could be me. I don't think I would be able to afford top surgery right now, but I want to do whatever I can to get to the point where that is a viable option, I have never been this desperate for anything else in my life. I don't know what else to say, sorry for ranting so much