u/barbie_d0ll369

I still feel like I’m still very up and down with things even though it’s been over a year. I’ve made plenty posts now, but in short my ex I was with 6 years, reverse discarded me for a girl he’d known one week, made her his girlfriend a day after we ended and then got her pregnant 9 weeks in.

But I worry that because he got caught he’ll treat her perfectly, so I look like a liar and a crazy ex. It hurts knowing all of the lies spewed about me and that if he is treating her better I’ll look like a liar. They’ve built their home on my tears and I’m left picking up the pieces and in therapy. It also doesn’t help that I’m ASD/ADHD so I find it very hard after a horrible experience to not ruminate. Some days I’m fine but he sponged off me for years and moved into somebody else like I meant nothing, never mind the smear campaign. He had been so poorly, lived with me and got better and then as soon as he was better cheated. The new supply had suspicions of me but he lied and said we hadn’t been together since 2023, but when they’d met ( a week before our breakup) when we were still together. She said to him “ if you left her to be with me it’s fine we can work through it”. So she’s fully aware I was with him but either didn’t believe me or just didn’t care. really it’s already built on an unstable foundation and total lies, so that’s not a good start. But it just makes me feel some way that he might actually change now he has a kid when 10 weeks prior he was saying “ I want to live my life and go drinking”.

But I hate the fact I look like a crazy ex when he genuinely was not nice to me for ages, I’m left with PTSD and they’re living it up. I know I shouldn’t still be bothered now but sometimes it gets to me. I just want justice and moreover for people to believe me, because he put me through hell.

I still feel like I’m still very up and down with things even though it’s been over a year. I’ve made plenty posts now, but in short my ex I was with 6 years, reverse discarded me for a girl he’d known one week, made her his girlfriend a day after we ended and then got her pregnant 9 weeks in.

But I worry that because he got caught he’ll treat her perfectly, so I look like a liar and a crazy ex. It hurts knowing all of the lies spewed about me and that if he is treating her better I’ll look like a liar. They’ve built their home on my tears and I’m left picking up the pieces and in therapy. It also doesn’t help that I’m ASD/ADHD so I find it very hard after a horrible experience to not ruminate. Some days I’m fine but he sponged off me for years and moved into somebody else like I meant nothing, never mind the smear campaign. He had been so poorly, lived with me and got better and then as soon as he was better cheated. The new supply had suspicions of me but he lied and said we hadn’t been together since 2023, but when they’d met ( a week before our breakup) when we were still together. She said to him “ if you left her to be with me it’s fine we can work through it”. So she’s fully aware I was with him but either didn’t believe me or just didn’t care. really it’s already built on an unstable foundation and total lies, so that’s not a good start. But it just makes me feel some way that he might actually change now he has a kid when 10 weeks prior he was saying “ I want to live my life and go drinking”.

But I hate the fact I look like a crazy ex when he genuinely was not nice to me for ages, I’m left with PTSD and they’re living it up. I know I shouldn’t still be bothered now but sometimes it gets to me. I just want justice and moreover for people to believe me, because he put me through hell.

I still feel like I’m still very up and down with things even though it’s been over a year. I’ve made plenty posts now, but in short my ex I was with 6 years, reverse discarded me for a girl he’d known one week, made her his girlfriend a day after we ended and then got her pregnant 9 weeks in.

But I worry that because he got caught he’ll treat her perfectly, so I look like a liar and a crazy ex. It hurts knowing all of the lies spewed about me and that if he is treating her better I’ll look like a liar. They’ve built their home on my tears and I’m left picking up the pieces and in therapy. It also doesn’t help that I’m ASD/ADHD so I find it very hard after a horrible experience to not ruminate. Some days I’m fine but he sponged off me for years and moved into somebody else like I meant nothing, never mind the smear campaign. He had been so poorly, lived with me and got better and then as soon as he was better cheated. The new supply had suspicions of me but he lied and said we hadn’t been together since 2023, but when they’d met ( a week before our breakup) when we were still together. She said to him “ if you left her to be with me it’s fine we can work through it”. So she’s fully aware I was with him but either didn’t believe me or just didn’t care. really it’s already built on an unstable foundation and total lies, so that’s not a good start. But it just makes me feel some way that he might actually change now he has a kid when 10 weeks prior he was saying “ I want to live my life and go drinking”.

But I hate the fact I look like a crazy ex when he genuinely was not nice to me for ages, I’m left with PTSD and they’re living it up. I know I shouldn’t still be bothered now but sometimes it gets to me. I just want justice and moreover for people to believe me, because he put me through hell.