u/asimetrixx

Hey ihr Mäuse,

Kennt einer von euch vielleicht einen deutschen sub für non-binäre Menschen?

Also quasi ein Pendant zu r/enby. Hab mich jetzt etwas umgeschaut, aber finde einfach nichts vergleichbares

My eyebrows were a big part of the problems I had with my face as they weren't defined and way to thick for my liking.

So finally I took the courage to go to a queer friendly dude who literally did miracles to my brows. They make me look like a different person and I feel way more feminine whenever I see myself in a mirror now.

And right after the brow shaping I got gendered correctly by a stranger for the first time ever. I was shopping groceries when an older women asked "young lady, you know where I find the butter?"

I was completely baffled cause I just wore a plain crop top, my hair was frizzy and messy, I had no makeup on. And even If I'd tried, I'm only on HRT for a short while and I don't pass that much usually.

So this is my PSA that you should get your brows done if you have the opportunity, it does A LOT

Ich hab mir heut ein neues Tattoo auf dem Oberarm stechen lassen und etwas später mit dem gynokadin in der Hand bemerkt, dass mir das ja für ein paar Wochen einen Teil meines Arms zum Gel auftragen nimmt.

Für 3-5 Tage ist jetzt eh erstmal second skin auf dem Motiv, aber die Haut ist ja danach noch nicht voll geheilt. Und ich frag mich nun, wie lang ich warten sollte, bis ich wieder die ganze Fläche meiner Arme für meine 2 Hübe Gel benutzen kann. Tätowiererin ist natürlich schon kontaktiert, aber ich würd gern hören, ob es unter euch vielleicht wen mit Erfahrungen gibt (das Motiv nimmt ca. die Hälfte des Oberarmes ein, also groß aber nur Linien und keine Farbe)

I'm on HRT for two months now and tomorrow I finally get a new tattoo. After a few years of tattoo abstinence I'm really excited.

But today I thought, what if the pain feels different?

I was always okay with tattoo pain, even on hard spots like on the ribs or the inner side of my arms.

Buuut, I mean, HRT already made me feel a lot of new stuff, gave me a whole bunch of new sensations and now I wonder:

Have you experienced a change in how you perceive the pain from tattooing? Is it harder to bear than before HRT?

We all know that your skin gets softer on E.

But what I recognized lately is that mentally I got waay softer since I started HRT (2 months ago).

Before it I was never able to feel my feelings properly and trying to think about it made me upset, because it was like standing at the coast and trying to see what's on the bottom of the ocean.

That mixed with male socialization which doomed feelings to an major extent doesn't made me harder or anything, but it made me numb and insensitive to what I or other people felt.

I knew when I was sad and I knew when friends had a rough time, but I wasn't able to help them or me or even think about it longer than a few seconds.

But now, I can't think a single second about problems my friends or I have without starting to cry. And I can't no longer not think about these things, when they occur.

Maybe I realized it when I started to watch Handmaid's Tale with my partner. Tbh, I think that I can't stand the show. We're in season 2 now and I just did something else while watching all the time cause I need to distract myself from the vile stuff that happens there.

I wasn't always like this. Hell, once in my teens I watched gore videos just cause I was curious. I never even flinched.

I really feel like every emotion isn't just experience-able now, it's like they go through a speaker and then roar through my head 100 times more intense.

When I get confronted with a bad emotion, my first thought is to run to my partner and cry my eyes out, just to feel more settled again.

When I see something unjust, it concerns me the whole day and sometimes longer than that.

And I really like it to be soft. I desire to be as far away from my old, numb me as I can. At the same time I don't know how to handle all of this. Feeling this soft apparently is very hard too if you're not used to it.

So after two months of HRT I suddenly feel. And I feel a lot.

For the first one and a half month I wasn't sure if this whole emotion thing a lot of you talk about will really hit me that deep.

I'm autistic and always struggled with access to my emotions. So maybe I shouldn't expect too much of it, hormones aren't miracles, right? Right????

Well, after this week I know they are. I genuinely felt more in the last 5 days than i have in the last 6 years.

Like, I know exactly when I'm happy cause I actually feel energy in my body. When I'm uncomfortable, I just need seconds to get at least a clue why that is.

At the same time this means I'm able to cry. Today I cried cause I had a chance to meet new people, but the event didn't happened. I knew it was this and it's not that big of a deal, but I couldn't stop myself from crying about it.

Probably the weirdest part about is that crying felt good. It wasn't a burst of emotions in form of a few explosive sobs without tears, I actually cried because I fckn felt a thing, whhhuuuuuu!

Estrogen is weird stuff, but oh my god, does my body and mind crave that shit