u/antonrusty

as the title says 😅

I recovered 2 times but now I relapsed after a ton of bad situations. I'm interested in knowing how many broke out of it.

it happens once every 4 months, I spend a really long time on the toilet because I have IBS d.. perfect storm eh..

I also have panic disorder, my body extremely over reacts when it feels like I'm in danger and jacks me up with adrenaline like there will be no tomorrow ready to wage war.

I did not feel a thing when it burst and stayed on the toilet like this for 1 hour and when I started wiping and realized how much blood I had I became extremely dizzy/foggy, of course a panic attack kicked in that made me feel like human waste.

my body the whole day was extremely tense on edge, shortness of breath, chest pain from that ridiculous adrenaline dump.

now the next day I just feel foggy, usually I recover mentally but yesterday was a different breed with so much stress.

how do you guys react when you see alot of blood when they burst? how do you feel mentally?

I underestimated that even such a low dose was helping me so God damn much to fully block the attacks. it's been about 2 months since I stoped it.

my whole body is hurting from passively stressing my muscle all day without realizing, had 2 panic attacks at work nothing major, my chest was horribly tight the entire day, my shoulders hurt like I carried something heavy all day.. my head will explode it hurts like crazy..

the trigger? just a health problem that makes me bleed a lot at times nothing serious but when I sighted all the blood coming out of me.. wow did my body escalate to prepare me for an imaginary war survival of the fittest part 2. instantly made me dizzy ( it was not the loss of blood) it was the sight of it. man my body can't relax even 12 hours later it's insane.

damn my ego (I don't need this I can do it alone without it I did it once I will do it again) messed me up alot this time lol.

never underestimate every mg you are taking, don't think to yourself ah I handle them better, no it's the pill making you believe that and it tricked me yet again.

go figure why they say (you should take it a little longer even after you feel okey) yep learned it the hard way this time. 12 hours stuck in an anxiety attack with a pitch of panic attacks here and there.

still not giving up I will beat you again panic disorder :)