How do people manage everything?
I just don’t get it. Not only do I feel like I’m wasting my life away and not doing enough for jobs (internships, clubs, classes, etc.), but I’m also wasting so many opportunities to just live life (to explore this great place that I’m in that I fought so hard to be in).
Plus, no matter how many alarms I set and how much I try to micromanage, there’s always something I’ll inevitably forget. How the hell am I supposed to keep track of all classes, in between club meetings, social stuff, assignment deadlines, administrative stuff (enrolling in classes, declaring your major, finishing paperwork, doctors appt, mobile data plan, insurance stuff, other admin stuff), and tasks (laundry, cooking, cleaning, meal prepping, oh what ingredients and food do I have left that I need to finish and how and when do I eat it to finish it in time). I’m not even doing half this stuff and I’m still so stressed and overwhelmed just thinking of it. I am the most organized obsessive micromanager I know and yet I’m so stressed and still forgetting a few things here and there. Then how does everyone else manage??? Adulting is an absolute nightmare. College, even more so with how disorganized and unstructured it is.
And lastly, social life. What is wrong with me? What do I keep doing wrong that I have so much trouble making and maintaining the few casual friendships I do end up making? And what’s wrong with me that all my close friendships almost always end and often, end with ugly fights over petty things. What am I doing so wrong that I just can’t seem to make or maintain friendships? That I just don’t seem to have a social life no matter what? And even when I do have a bit when I rlly push myself, I’m not happy with it and I go back to not having one. What am I doing so wrong that I can’t do the most basic things that almost everyone else manages just fine???