I keep fantasizing and thinking about myself dying, having my limbs torn off, being run over or falling off of a highrise. I'm pretty sure I'm not sane anymore, I vividly experience death everyday in my brain it's dreadful
Estou a ponderar ir ao evento passado uns bons anos mas não tenho ninguém com quem ir.
Alguém no mesmo barco que eu? Tenho 25 btw
I have no idea how to deal with what I'm feeling. What do you do when your SO was your best friend and you had no one outside that?
I know it's my fault for living like this (no support system outside of my SO) but I'm genuinely at a loss here, i feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest and at the same time I have genuinely no one to talk to about it.
I told myself I wouldn't get into a relationship again because it always ends with me being miserable. I feel as if grief and love are forever intertwined and I have no desire to be a part of it anymore with the amount of times I've had to pick up pieces of my heart and glue them together whether it was my decision or not.