u/adhdbeast101

I’m currently on day ten. Perhaps I feel a bit better in terms of mood stability, and I’m experiencing less negative/paralyzing intrusive thoughts.

Although, I just feel absolutely demotivated and I’m struggling to believe in myself and have faith in my abilities.

I’m just feeling quite self-conscious in general, tired, and still mentally foggy from months of feeling down.

I know from experience - this negative voice inside my head IS depression. It’s also from complex trauma, too.

When did you start to finally feel better, where you’d say it was noticeable? When did your spark and belief in yourself return?

I like and greatly prefer Adderall because it provides physical stimulation to get me up and going, and feels a lot more mentally stimulating in general.

It increases my alertness, motivation, and literally wakes me up. Vyvanse does not provide this - it actually sedates me and makes me incredibly tired, foggy, and unmotivated.

Adderall lifts my mood, increases drive, and helps me start tasks.

When I take Vyvanse, I feel paralyzed and impaired - and typically lay on my bed for hours. I can tell the drug has entered my system, but it feels like it’s trickling out such a small amount over the course of 5-6 hours, that it never really “helps” at ANY point.