17f Need help leaving for college
I (17f) live with my parents who are very toxic and verbally & physically abusive. some of the things they did are-
my mom beat my brother with a walking cane when he was around 7 or 9.
my mom hit my sister on the back of her neck with a cable when she was around 11.
she has choked me out atleast 3 times once was I was like 5 or 6 and once when I was 16.
I feel like she hits me more because I can't physically fight back whereas my elder siblings started to fight back whenever she would hit them. She still hits me atleast twice a year.
My father is also equally abusive if not worse. a few years back he put us in a LOT of debt which he is still paying off. This along with my sister's and brother's college fees I don't have high hopes that he will or can afford to send me to college rn. worse comes to worse he'll send me to a local college 20 minutes away which means I won't be able to leave. I hate living here, I'm not allowed to go out or wear anything I like and I'm constantly told i could never do anything in my life. If I don't leave now I don't think they'll let me leave later on. what should I do??? Should I get a job? What place will hire an 18yo with no college degree. I live in india and jobs like waitress are heavily looked down upon.