hi, need song recos -
yung tipong sarap ulit-ulitin throughout the whole day or weeks or even months haha
pref. banger ones! yung may drums at guitar riffs haha but am good w/ anything, thanks!
I have been alone for a long time. Well, not technically, but you know that feeling that you're surrounded by people but no one really cares about you? You're often the listener but nobody cares when it's your time to share your stories and burdens? Dismissive people - yeah, that's my fam, unfortunately.
For years, they're my only circle. Online class in college when pandemic hit, online job as my first work. I had nobody else.
Then, I decided to apply for an onsite role and was accepted. Man, it was a game-changer. At first, I was so shy and self-conscious. I don't talk to people that often and I try to hide my real feelings. But, that wasn't really me. Looking back, I have always been real to everyone. When I decided to finally let go, everything just clicked. I started smiling and throwing jokes to people that doesn't fail to make them laugh. I love making people happy, the very people that actually deserves happiness in their lives and I'm happy to bring that to them.
It was my last day with them yesterday. Told myself I wouldn't cry but I did cry like a baby. A lot of my co-workers told me they are gonna miss me and that they have found a true friend in me.
Leaving them hurts like this because I realized:
I had been lonely for a long time. I haven't had real friends that I get to laugh and live with everyday. This was the first time that I get to feel joy and not feel guilty about it. This was the first time I get to be as real as I could be but no one really judges me because I make people happy. I don't need to perform, I just need to be myself and that makes a lot of my connections more genuine.
Depression thrives in isolation and eventually, I found the very community who helped me thrive and cope with my mental health - through work.
I often hear corporate horror stories but not me, everything there is wholesome despite some sorts of problems arise sometimes.
Though I have to leave because of current responsibilities, I've learned a lot: to not shrink myself wherever I go, to be genuine and authentic in my connections because people will accept or judge me. Either way, I'm good.
Kindness for the kind.
Genuineness for the genuine.
More often than not, your family will be the one who'd make you feel alone and judge you to the core. Nonetheless, the world does not revolve around them. At the end of the day, some people would accept you for who you are and would be happy because you simply exist. They're the ones to keep and to treasure, they're the ones who make you breathe into life again.
I'm gonna miss those people but they never lost me. I've found myself through them.
I have been alone for a long time. Well, not technically, but you know that feeling that you're surrounded by people but no one really cares about you? You're often the listener but nobody cares when it's your time to share your stories and burdens? Dismissive people - yeah, that's my fam, unfortunately.
For years, they're my only circle. Online class in college when pandemic hit, online job as my first work. I had nobody else.
Then, I decided to apply for an onsite role and was accepted. Man, it was a game-changer. At first, I was so shy and self-conscious. I don't talk to people that often and I try to hide my real feelings. But, that wasn't really me. Looking back, I have always been real to everyone. When I decided to finally let go, everything just clicked. I started smiling and throwing jokes to people that doesn't fail to make them laugh. I love making people happy, the very people that actually deserves happiness in their lives and I'm happy to bring that to them.
It was my last day with them yesterday. Told myself I wouldn't cry but I did cry like a baby. A lot of my co-workers told me they are gonna miss me and that they have found a true friend in me.
Leaving them hurts like this because I realized:
I had been lonely for a long time. I haven't had real friends that I get to laugh and live with everyday. This was the first time that I get to feel joy and not feel guilty about it. This was the first time I get to be as real as I could be but no one really judges me because I make people happy. I don't need to perform, I just need to be myself and that makes a lot of my connections more genuine.
Depression thrives in isolation and eventually, I found the very community who helped me thrive and cope with my mental health - through work.
I often hear corporate horror stories but not me, everything there is wholesome despite some sorts of problems arise sometimes.
Though I have to leave because of current responsibilities, I've learned a lot: to not shrink myself wherever I go, to be genuine and authentic in my connections because people will accept or judge me. Either way, I'm good.
Kindness for the kind.
Genuineness for the genuine.
More often than not, your family will be the one who'd make you feel alone and judge you to the core. Nonetheless, the world does not revolve around them. At the end of the day, some people would accept you for who you are and would be happy because you simply exist. They're the ones to keep and to treasure, they're the ones who make you breathe into life again.
I'm gonna miss those people but they never lost me. I've found myself through them. 🤍