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Vent/Rant.. Might delete soon.

I am a woman in my early 30s. Married. Childfree.

I was born in a dysfunctional family where the father had NPD and the mother was too helpless to even save herself. So basically my whole childhood, teenage and early adulthood was just a plethora of developmental trauma which gifted me something called C-PTSD. It is a combination of severe anxiety, depression, some OCD and neurodivergence. In short, I spent my whole life in survival mode and never got the chance to form a healthy identity.

But all is not bad. I moved away, cut off contact with my father and has been in therapy (not on medication atm). Things are better now. The problem I face is that my social life is non-existent. Self-isolation has been my coping mechanism for so long that I developed hyper-independence and extreme avoidance. Add to it the fact that the few friends I managed to make ended up not being very healthy for me (one even ended up being diagnosed with NPD). So my brain views human connections as dangerous. My only point of contact is my partner who has been very understanding and supportive.

I know the importance of a community when it comes to mental health. I just don’t know how to be a part of one. How do you make friends as an adult woman when there is so much holding you back? Or worse, how do you become a good friend with all these issues? How do you find people who are your “tribe”? There is a part of me that yearns for sisterhood but there is also a part that is terrified of the same.

I don’t know the point of making this post. I just wanted to blurt this all out somewhere I guess. Thank you for reading so far. Hope you have a good week ahead.

Vent/Rant.. Might delete soon. Sorry that this had to be the first post in the community.

I am a woman in my early 30s. Married. Childfree.

I was born in a dysfunctional family where the father had NPD and the mother was too helpless to even save herself. So basically my whole childhood, teenage and early adulthood was just a plethora of developmental trauma which gifted me something called C-PTSD. It is a combination of severe anxiety, depression, some OCD and neurodivergence. In short, I spent my whole life in survival mode and never got the chance to form a healthy identity.

But all is not bad. I moved away, cut off contact with my father and has been in therapy (not on medication atm). Things are better now. The problem I face is that my social life is non-existent. Self-isolation has been my coping mechanism for so long that I developed hyper-independence and extreme avoidance. Add to it the fact that the few friends I managed to make ended up not being very healthy for me (one even ended up being diagnosed with NPD). So my brain views human connections as dangerous. My only point of contact is my partner who has been very understanding and supportive.

I know the importance of a community when it comes to mental health. I just don’t know how to be a part of one. How do you make friends as an adult woman when there is so much holding you back? Or worse, how do you become a good friend with all these issues? How do you find people who are your “tribe”? There is a part of me that yearns for sisterhood but there is also a part that is terrified of the same.

I don’t know the point of making this post. I just wanted to blurt this all out somewhere I guess. Thank you for reading so far. Hope you have a good week ahead.

Vent/Rant.. Might delete soon.

I am a woman in my early 30s. Married. Childfree.

I was born in a dysfunctional family where the father had NPD and the mother was too helpless to even save herself. So basically my whole childhood, teenage and early adulthood was just a plethora of developmental trauma which gifted me something called C-PTSD. It is a combination of severe anxiety, depression, some OCD and neurodivergence. In short, I spent my whole life in survival mode and never got the chance to form a healthy identity.

But all is not bad. I moved away, cut off contact with my father and has been in therapy (not on medication atm). Things are better now. The problem I face is that my social life is non-existent. Self-isolation has been my coping mechanism for so long that I developed hyper-independence and extreme avoidance. Add to it the fact that the few friends I managed to make ended up not being very healthy for me (one even ended up being diagnosed with NPD). So my brain views human connections as dangerous. My only point of contact is my partner who has been very understanding and supportive.

I know the importance of a community when it comes to mental health. I just don’t know how to be a part of one. How do you make friends as an adult woman when there is so much holding you back? Or worse, how do you become a good friend with all these issues? How do you find people who are your “tribe”? There is a part of me that yearns for sisterhood but there is also a part that is terrified of the same.

I don’t know the point of making this post. I just wanted to blurt this all out somewhere I guess. Thank you for reading so far. Hope you have a good week ahead.

Has anyone attended workshops/certifications from psychoshiksha? Are they legit?

https://www.instagram.com/psychoshiksha\_/

https://psychoshiksha.in/certificate-courses/