u/Zitty_witty

I have constant fear and restlessness that my favourite people might leave me. At this point in my life, I turned 29 last month. I have already been abandoned by everyone who mattered to me. Now I feel too drained for meeting or talking to anyone. I stay mostly indoors, don't have any job at the moment.
There is no one left whom I might fear, can abandon me at this point.
Have I conquered my Borderline Personality Disorder?
I still feel this restlessness but I don't know whom for?
Maybe it's for myself, am I my favourite? Am I afraid that I might abandon myself?
Am I really a survivor? Or just an imposter?

I have constant fear and restlessness that my favourite people might leave me. At this point in my life, I turned 29 last month. I have already been abandoned by everyone who mattered to me. Now I feel too drained for meeting or talking to anyone. I stay mostly indoors, don't have any job at the moment.
There is no one left whom I might fear, can abandon me at this point.
Have I conquered my Borderline Personality Disorder?
I still feel this restlessness but I don't know whom for?
Maybe it's for myself, am I my favourite? Am I afraid that I might abandon myself?
Am I really a survivor? Or just an imposter?