Im killing myself. I cant do this anymorr im so fsorry
I (20f) dont know who to go to so im here.
Everything hurts. I feel selfish doing this but i have to.
Ive asked for help too many times and im alone. Well not alone alone but like. Ive bothered everyone too many times about this. They deserve a break.
I don’t know. I don’t know I’m sorry I’m sorry I don’t know I’m sorry. I just want to die I want to die it’s the only thing that’s left for me I swant to die I’m sorry
I’m sorry. I thought i was doing bbetter and then this stupid psychotic episode or whatever came back and I cant do this i’m sorry. I cant do this i cant. I’m so selfish, just last morning i ruined something that was supposed to be so wonderful over an argument over a bug. A fucking bug I can’t I’m sorry. She had been smiling so wide before. She was so happy. I ruined it. I ruin everything im sorry i’m sorry. The first time I saw her cry was because of me. I was psychotic again and I said I hated her but I don’t hate her she isnt the devil i just thought she was i love her so much. I made her feel sick. I want her to stay but thats such a selfish request. So i told her she was allowed to leave if she wantened. I don’t know if she does or not. She said she’d stay with me. I want her to. I don’t think she should. I’m sorry. This is so stupid to kill myself over but I have to it’s the only way I have to i’m sorry. I’m sorry I m so selfish I can’t do this I can’t do this Imm sorry I can’t I cant I canr
I tcant
I was never supposed to make it this far. I should have died years ago. The only people who’ll be traumatized over my death are going to be the ones who discover my body. I feel bad for them.
Im scared. Please help me