u/WrongdoerOrganic8518

▲ 1 r/Kafka

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I'm 16,My eye is in pain every time I use it(phone,tv, writing, drawing, basically everything),I got hyperacusis and tintus, which is Every day sounds and all sounds sound loudly painful, and it can get always get worse, it's been 5 months or more,I left my academic study, and basically Life, because what can you do ?,went to doctors,they didn't cure it, probably because I live in bad country,my family doesn't believe me,they make fun of me, that's actually funny and sad, I'm in pain all the time,I have tried everything and beyond my energy, I'm tired, and weirdly I feel regret for not being cuerd,I wish I were exaggerating, but I'm only saying a little,I could have flyed to Moon and made an empire there, with the power I clung to Life. Everyday,I wake up ,eat,then go to bed, and just close my eyes,or look at the ceiling, untill I get sleepy, and sleep, and the cycle continue.im writing (not this text,my eyes are burning now) on the paper and closing my eyes,at least I'm doing a thing you know.

There's an infinite amount of hope in the universe... but not for Us.

\-franz Kafka

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u/WrongdoerOrganic8518 — 7 days ago
▲ 2 r/helpme

Suffering but pushing

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I'm 16,My eye is in pain every time I use it(phone,tv, writing, drawing, basically everything),I got hyperacusis and tintus, which is Every day sounds and all sounds sound loudly painful, and it can get always get worse, it's been 5 months or more,I left my academic study, and basically Life, because what can you do ?,went to doctors,they didn't cure it, probably because I live in bad country,my family doesn't believe me,they make fun of me, that's actually funny and sad, I'm in pain all the time,I have tried everything and beyond my energy, I'm tired, and weirdly I feel regret for not being cuerd,I wish I were exaggerating, but I'm only saying a little,I could have flyed to Moon and made an empire there, with the power I clung to Life. Everyday,I wake up ,eat,then go to bed, and just close my eyes,or look at the ceiling, untill I get sleepy, and sleep, and the cycle continue.im writing (not this text,my eyes are burning now) on the paper and closing my eyes,at least I'm doing a thing you know.i have found this subreddit and just Said let me write.

There's an infinite amount of hope in the universe... but not for Us.

-franz Kafka

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u/WrongdoerOrganic8518 — 7 days ago

Suffering but pushing

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I'm 16,My eye is in pain every time I use it(phone,tv, writing, drawing, basically everything),I got hyperacusis and tintus, which is Every day sounds and all sounds sound loudly painful, and it can get always get worse, it's been 5 months or more,I left my academic study, and basically Life, because what can you do ?,went to doctors,they didn't cure it, probably because I live in bad country,my family doesn't believe me,they make fun of me, that's actually funny and sad, I'm in pain all the time,I have tried everything and beyond my energy, I'm tired, and weirdly I feel regret for not being cuerd,I wish I were exaggerating, but I'm only saying a little,I could have flyed to Moon and made an empire there, with the power I clung to Life. Everyday,I wake up ,eat,then go to bed, and just close my eyes,or look at the ceiling, untill I get sleepy, and sleep, and the cycle continue.im writing (not this text,my eyes are burning now) on the paper and closing my eyes,at least I'm doing a thing you know.i have found this subreddit and just Said let me write.

There's an infinite amount of hope in the universe... but not for Us.

-franz Kafka

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u/WrongdoerOrganic8518 — 7 days ago

عمري 16 سنة. عيني تؤلمني كل مرة أستخدمها فيها — الهاتف، التلفاز، الكتابة، الرسم، تقريبًا كل شيء. وعندي فرط حساسية للصوت وطنين، يعني الأصوات اليومية وكل الأصوات تصير عالية ومؤلمة، وممكن بأي وقت تسوء أكثر. صار لي أكثر من خمسة أشهر بهالحالة. تركت الدراسة، وبصراحة تركت الحياة تقريبًا، لأن ماذا تستطيع أن تفعل؟

ذهبت إلى أطباء، لكنهم لم يعالجوني. ربما لأنني أعيش في بلد سيئ. أهلي لا يصدقونني، وحتى يسخرون مني أحيانًا، وهذا الشيء مضحك ومحزن بنفس الوقت.

أنا أتألم طوال الوقت. جرّبت كل شيء وأكثر من طاقتي، وتعبت. والغريب أنني أشعر بالندم لأنني لم أُشفَ، وكأنني مذنب بشيء. أتمنى لو أنني أبالغ، لكنني في الحقيقة لا أقول إلا جزءًا بسيطًا مما أشعر به.

كنت استطيع ان اسافر الى. القمر و وأسس امبراطوريه هناك ،بالطاقة التي اتشبث بها بالحياة.

كل يوم أستيقظ، آكل، ثم أعود لأستلقي وأبقى فقط مغمض العينين أو أحدّق في السقف حتى أشعر بالنعاس، ثم أنام، وتستمر نفس الدوامة. أكتب الآن على الورق وعيناي مغمضتان، على الأقل أشعر أنني ما زلت أفعل شيئًا.

“هناك كمية لا نهائية من الأمل في هذا الكون... لكن ليس لنا.”

فرانز كافكا

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u/WrongdoerOrganic8518 — 7 days ago