u/Worried-Rain-1532

Am I the only one who notices how anything mentioning actual medical regret, surgical and sterilization regret, losing community when coming out about detransitioning, and any pushback on the sentiment that we don't deserve any place within the genderqueer community - I think we do - gets downvoted?? I'd assume its lurkers, perhaps transmedicalist lurkers. Sometimes it feels like the exact opposite issue from the other subreddit where you have so many lurkers who are right wing or homophobic or TERs ect it seems like there are detransphobic lurkers here at times and it makes me sad idk I just don't feel I belong anywhere and I hate feeling like I'm not allowed to say I WAS coerced into the medical aspects bc transmedicalism and medical / parental coercion. My OWN EXPERIENCES as a serial abuse and neglect survivor, part of which involved transitioning trauma, should not be weaponized, stigmatized, or demonized, I guess. It just is very frustrating, idk what to do with all of this and I hate feeling invalidated, it is extremely triggering

idk did any of you have a combination of all this that resulted in your disorder(s)? I:

- grew up in a place with 30+ animals at all times (animal hoarding)

- lived in filth from the animals and didn't get peace or personal space due to the shitbeasts (d*gs), my clothes, bedding, and all of our furniture had dog urine on it at all times, shitstains in carpet, my sheets had dried vomit and crap on them. Parents didn't ever teach us how to do laundry and they didn't care so I guess I assumed that was normal

- everything reeked. i reeked. I was filthy, disgusting, and worthless

- also got CSA'd by a pedophile so! There's also that!

- covert incest by my mother... don't want to get into detail about that but it was extremely fucked up

- physical abuse

- bodily shaming (I became hypersexual after my assault and got shamed badly and even at one point, beaten for it)

- BUT for some reason I got whatever toys, food, games etc that I ever wanted? I was kind of a spoilt brat. Neglected and spoilt at the same time, does this make sense????????

Spoilered for selfie. It has been over a year since i decided to detrans and I am very happy with my choice! I am insecure about my chest but I got prescribed medical grade breast form prosthetics and get them in a couple weeks, so I am excited for that!! I just want my hair to grow out faster it is in that ugly embarassing phase right now sadly

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