I feel like I play some games out of obligation.
I've been playing games since I was 5 years old. At the beginning it was extremely fun because it was hard; I could only play if I had money or a friend invited me to play. After I grew up, it got easy, and I could play more frequently; it was still great. Now I have a big problem. I feel genuinely like a bad person when I replay a game. It's like this feeling of dread because time is running out and I need to use it to finish as many good games as I can. It is not all bad because most of the new games go from very good to great, but the feeling never leaves me. Also, there are so many good games, old and new, small and gigantic, that I get stuck on indecision.
There is another feeling I have when I'm playing a new game, and it is the nebulous sensation that there is a better, more fun game I should be playing instead, with better mechanics and a more profound story. It is maddening.
I know all this is caused by some anxiety disorder; that is why I'm screening into the ether. I'm thinking maybe getting it out of my chest is going to make it better.