u/Warmyouskillet

I finally put my ego aside and reached out to you. I’m not sure what it was I was hoping for or why I did. Maybe it was hoping that you missed me too and would give me a second chance. Or that maybe you didn’t wanna be with me in that way again but we could still be friends. Play stardew valley together and just be back in each other’s life. Idk what I was thinking. I know I don’t deserve a second chance and you clearly do not want me in your life in any form and I understand that.

What was I thinking? That you were gonna jump in my arms and tell me you wanted to be with me? That you want me as much as I want you? That you’ve thought about me everyday since we parted ways and were waiting for me to reach out? Silly me.

Maybe it’s killing me so much because for once, I didn’t have control over what happened. I’ve always been the one who had control and ended things in my past. They always chased me and wanted me back and you clearly don’t. After all, I self sabotaged so bad there was no way I could come back from that. Thank you for being kind and accepting my apology. Thank you for making me feel the way you did and becoming excited about life again. You really had me singing in the morning and dancing around. I felt so alive and Maybe that’s just a sign. Real love I’ve heard is supposed to make you feel calm. I’m sorry I couldn’t be your calm. I hope you find someone who does :) goodbye A. I’ll cherish the time we’ve had together and finally move on. It’s not doing any of us any good staying in the past. You’ve clearly moved on. I will now do the same 💜

I was working at a small office as front desk and recently moved into more of a marketing role, specifically helping build out a website. I don’t have formal experience in this, so I was learning everything as I went. At first I was excited and saw it as a growth opportunity, but it quickly became overwhelming.

There were multiple people involved, expectations weren’t very clear, and at times my work would get changed or overwritten without me fully knowing what was happening. I was trying really hard to keep up and make it work, but it felt like constant trial and error without much structure.

This week things kind of blew up. I had lost a ton of work (later found out it was actually overwritten by someone else pushing things live), and I had a really emotional reaction because I was already burnt out and stressed. I’ll own that I got overwhelmed.

I ended up expressing that I didn’t feel comfortable continuing in the role because it was too much for me, and then I was let go.

What’s really bothering me is:

•	I feel like I genuinely tried and pushed myself

•	The environment felt chaotic and hard to succeed in

•	I didn’t feel supported or fully understood

•	The ending was really abrupt and I didn’t get any kind of closure

At the same time, I’m questioning myself like:

•	Did I overreact?

•	Should I have handled it differently?

•	Is this just what happens when you step into something you’re not fully experienced in?