I need some advice on which addiction I should quit first. I believe I’ve asked something similar to this before, but i’m trying to quite smoking currently, but I’ve gotten back into self harm. Both make me feel guilty, because my friends and family look down on me for smoking, but the cutting feels just as guilty for me. People just think it’s weird around me. Thoughts would be appreciated.
I usually cut on my shoulders, but I’ve recently started cutting on my thighs because I’ve ran out of space. Does anyone else feel as if their thighs are more sensitive when they cut? I feel that way.
I cut myself a lot and very frequently, but when I do it I am scared to. I’ll still do it, but I hesitate a lot of times and don’t cut very deep. I don’t know how to explain the feeling, but does anyone else understand?
I prefer the sting after cutting rather than the pain in the moment. I actually don’t really like the pain during it, but the pain that lingers after I really enjoy. Especially when it’s sore after a few days. Is this weird?
I’ve never really hated or been insecure about the scars that I’ve left from my cutting. I actually really like my scars. I think it adds character to myself and is a visual reminder. Does anyone else feel this way?
I’ve been clean from self harm for a little while now, but I still feel urges to do it every now and then. Especially when it’s bad. I’m considering starting again since I’m trying to quit smoking.
I feel alone and I want someone to be there for me. Nothing feels worth it anymore. Even on online spaces I feel worthless. It’s even worse in real life.
I just want someone that understands me and doesn’t think I’m a burden and will love me throughout everything. I hate myself so much.
I feel so down and miserable all the time and I feel guilty for it. I have friends that have gone through so much more than me and cope better. I’ve had a good life all around. I have good parents, a good family, good friends, etc. But at the same time I feel unwanted. I feel lonely even though I know I have people that are there for me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. People make me feel guilty for the coping mechanisms that I have. For example I’ve been using smokes for a little while to ease my emotions and calm myself down, and I feel fucking dumb. I’ve been in a clean environment all my life and I start to pick up smokes while my friend who’s never smoked ever grew up in a smoking environment. I don’t know. I just feel like my problems are overlooked by the people around me and no one tries to really understand why I do the things I do. I just want someone to be there for me.