u/Twinky_winky_deepsea

I've (M35) got BPD diagnosis and I've been feeling of being very prone to envy; for example I see a random dude I consider more attractive than me, and suddenly I wish him all bad luck, thinking that he must have life far easier than me, then ruminating that pretty priviledge does exist, that "inner beauty" crap is just a pathetic attempt to deny its existence in society, then ending up hating myself for being "ugly" until I've got the antidot in form of compliment or having sex with a man I find attractive.

Is that a typical trait or do I have something else (accompanying my BPD)? I read no where about envy in BPD articles.

I've got BPD diagnosis and I've been feeling of being very prone to envy; for example I see a random dude I consider more attractive than me, and suddenly I wish him all bad luck, thinking that he must have life far easier than me, then ruminating that pretty priviledge does exist, that "inner beauty" crap is a pathetic denial attempt of its existence in society, then ending up hating myself for being "ugly" until an I've got an antidots in form of compliment or having sex with a man I find attractive.

Is that a typical trait or do I have something else (accompanying my BPD)? I read no where about envy in BPD articles.

I just visited the Sub r/BPDlovedones. Was buffled by most of the posts (and comments); the sub looks like mostly just an echoe chamber of people shitting on and judging BPD people, packaged with sentence formulation like: "I know they don't choose to have a disorder, but so what? Being arsehole is being arsehole, and mental illness cannot justify it. blablabla"

What I don't understand is, if it really is that bad, why don't they just leave their BPD people? It's like to me that their behaviours are the actual problem: complaining and complaining yet are stuck to people they are complaining about. I believe they have choice to leave.

Is it how majority of people think of BPD?