u/Throwawaymojh

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hi im 48f it's been 16 months since I lost my son. my baby boy, to terminal cancer. He was only 23. For a while, I thought I was doing okay, but the last month has been nothing but tears. Maybe it's because my husband of 26 years passed away last month too. I've lost two of the three most important people in my life. My beautiful daughter, 15, is the only thing keeping me going.

The fact that it's been 16 months since my baby has been gone is devastating. I've slept in his room a few times since he passed, but since my husband died, I've been in there more. I feel something special in there. It's the only thing that makes me happy at night, seeing his pictures on his wall.

My son was a beautiful young man. He adored his sister, they were so close. He was so sweet to everyone. I'll never forget him on his first day of school, so proud to be a big boy, with the biggest smile on his face. I remember his graduation, that was a very proud day. He always brightened up the room. When he was born, my dad, who hardly showed emotion, cried holding him. And after the funeral, my dad didn't leave the graveyard for hours. He loved my son; they got on so well. My dad was an amazing dad but an even more wonderful grandfather.

My son loved the outdoors. We always went hiking together, and I loved it. I was so happy that he wanted to do things with me – hiking, going to shows together. I loved every moment with my boy. I can't believe it's been 16 months. There isn't a moment when I don't think about him – his smile, his hugs, his personality, his love for his family, and his kindness. He was always so thoughtful. He was such a lovely boy, and seeing my daughter grieve his loss has been heartbreaking. No parent likes seeing their child cry.

It's been a nightmare 16 months for me. Losing my baby and my husband in such a short time is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I'm just happy my son isn't in pain anymore and that he has Dad with him now. I love you both so much. You both brought so much happiness into my life. Thank you.

hi im 48f it's been 16 months since I lost my son. my baby boy, to terminal cancer. He was only 23. For a while, I thought I was doing okay, but the last month has been nothing but tears. Maybe it's because my husband of 26 years passed away last month too. I've lost two of the three most important people in my life. My beautiful daughter, 15, is the only thing keeping me going.

The fact that it's been 16 months since my baby has been gone is devastating. I've slept in his room a few times since he passed, but since my husband died, I've been in there more. I feel something special in there. It's the only thing that makes me happy at night, seeing his pictures on his wall.

My son was a beautiful young man. He adored his sister, they were so close. He was so sweet to everyone. I'll never forget him on his first day of school, so proud to be a big boy, with the biggest smile on his face. I remember his graduation, that was a very proud day. He always brightened up the room. When he was born, my dad, who hardly showed emotion, cried holding him. And after the funeral, my dad didn't leave the graveyard for hours. He loved my son; they got on so well. My dad was an amazing dad but an even more wonderful grandfather.

My son loved the outdoors. We always went hiking together, and I loved it. I was so happy that he wanted to do things with me – hiking, going to shows together. I loved every moment with my boy. I can't believe it's been 16 months. There isn't a moment when I don't think about him – his smile, his hugs, his personality, his love for his family, and his kindness. He was always so thoughtful. He was such a lovely boy, and seeing my daughter grieve his loss has been heartbreaking. No parent likes seeing their child cry.

It's been a nightmare 16 months for me. Losing my baby and my husband in such a short time is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I'm just happy my son isn't in pain anymore and that he has Dad with him now. I love you both so much. You both brought so much happiness into my life. Thank you.

I'm just...broken. I don't know how to keep going.