u/Thats_All_Right

I will get so anxious that I am convinced that people are talking about me or notice my insecurities, or see me in a negative light. I have this horrendous fear of my own insecurities being exposed.

Sometimes my mind will make me think that people are talking about the things that I’m most worried about.

When I started college I was extremely anxious and paranoid. My mind started trickling me into thinking that people’s conversations were about my flaws. I could hear people talking about me so vividly and my mind was making it all up.

It was like my mind was showing me my deepest insecurities.

I usually have dreams of being humiliated but it can also happen when I’m awake if I’m in a really bad headspace.

I can’t believe it took me this long to realise this. I am so sick and tired of my own country being invaded by immigrants. The city near me feels like a third world country. It doesn’t feel British at all. In many areas I can barely see any British people and it makes me feel so sad and displaced.

A lot of the immigrants I see don’t appear to assimilate or embrace British culture which makes me feel like a stranger in my own country.

There is simply too much immigration and with my own eyes I can see that it is so obviously out of control. But when I come on Reddit it’s treated as if the problem isn’t merely as bad, and that people who share my views are somehow in the wrong.

Almost every British person I know agrees with me on this in real life, but when I come on Reddit this is seen super controversial. Reddit seems so out of touch with reality that I find it baffling.

I’ve had fatigue for as long as I can remember which has grown progressively worse when I became an adult. I attribute this to my very severe mental health issues which is very draining in general.

I had to leave college after a few minutes yesterday. It felt like every last trace of life and energy was sucked out of me. I was completely unable to function and couldn't communicate.

Normally I can push through my usual fatigue just enough to manage the bare minimum, but what I experienced yesterday was too much. I’ve noticed that when my mental health is being pushed to its limit lately my body will just shut down on me.

I think that mental health is very highly connected to physical health.

I have extremely unstable mood that is driven by dysmorphia in my face. It could be something as simple as seeing myself in bad lighting and perceiving more asymmetry than I thought and I will start thinking about suicide. It has gotten bad enough that I’ve planned out my own death many times, but the intensity usually fades that I’m able to think clearly eventually

These bad moods can last for days. The first day is definitely the worst but it probably halves in intensity each day following until I forget about it. But it happens over and over again and I can’t stop it from happening.

My dysmorphia hits in intense waves that plays with my emotions to the extreme. My life feels unliveable when it strikes and I’m consumed by worry, anxiety and complete terror.

I have often wondered if I suffer from a mood disorder. I think that this unstable mood has always been present and the BDD just latched onto it and exasperated it.

So many people nowadays seen to have unprotected sex not because of a lack of knowledge or birth control, but simply because they lack impulse control. I don’t think these people think about having children that much, they simply lack the intelligence needed to think logically.

A lot of these people recognise that their situations are unsuitable for raising children but don’t have the cognition required, or are too self centred to not give into unprotected sex.

Birth control is widely available and very easy to obtain, but the people who need it most don’t because they are not intelligent enough to employ long term decision making and consider the outcomes of their actions. They act on impulse at the time and worry about it later.

I hate sex because it is accessible to all, including the most stupid people on this planet, who tend to be the ones who exploit and misuse it the most. These people are the reason children keep suffering.

I’m not someone who thinks work is inherently bad. I think someone who puts in effort should be naturally rewarded over someone who does nothing. I think that is fair.

But only when it actually delivers something worthwhile in return. 40 hours a week is a big part of a person’s life and if someone cannot comfortably sustain themselves after giving that time, regardless of their job or salary, then something is seriously wrong. This world has become desensitised to what it means to work 40 hours a week.

Sometimes I feel like I should go back to claiming benefits and doing nothing because if I’m giving away this much time and still can’t get far, then the investment of my time simply doesn’t seem worthwhile.

It seems to have become normalised that a liveable life must require a high paying job at minimum. I think this normalisation made it so minimum wage workers can’t survive. It should be the bare minimum that any person can sustain themselves for forty hours a week no matter the job.