u/SunlitOwl

I have to make a confession 

You are my biggest obsession

Not to say that I want you as a possession

(Unless we're talking within a session)

Your absence leaves me in a great depression

With maybe even a hint of regression

Whatever choice you make it is at your own discretion

I am not the type of person to lead with oppression

All I really desire is some form of progression

Without causing some inexcusable transgression 

How to accomplish that…is the ultimate question

Logic and emotion can clash if they mix

Like the big bad wolf and the house of sticks

Perhaps we would have been better off building with bricks

Instead we lay surrounded by the debris

The cost of trying to live carefree

Just name the place and I'd be there whether I need to take a plane, train, or car. Just to hear your voice again and see the light of your eyes and the fire of your heart. We could do anything we want. Explore our surrounds, catch up on all of the time lost. We could sing our hearts out and dance around like fools in public. Or take things inside and let our bodies do the singing instead.

Time and place, my dear. Just name it.

I'm alone. You're the only person I feel safe with. Wth is wrong with me? I miss you every second of every day. It's so painful. When we were together everything was do effortless. Why did that stop? I don't know. My idiocy? Regardless, I will always fucking love you with all of my heart. Of everyone in the world you deserve the most happiness of all, in whatever way you see.

Fuck. I am just breaking without you.

I just don't understand any of this. A single conversation in person, please. Because I am so in pain without you that I have to drink to numb everything. We are so perfect when we are together. But I also have so many questions that I only trust you to provide the answers to, because there are so many things that I cannot fathom actually happened. Please. At least do me the courtesy of that conversation, even if you no longer feel anything toward me. I am such a stubborn asshole that I won't be able to let go until that happens.

Fuck. I love you so fucking much. Why are we apart?

And you've cut me from your life...I don't know what to do with all of these feelings. Was everything so meaningless to you? I'm so lost that I literally cannot function without you but you don't seem to care in the slightest.

I still hope you are happy and thriving. I love you.