u/Strong_Hunter_4014

Is this real or fake

I haven't done it in about a week and all of a sudden yesterday around day 6 I started feeling the urges. I was going strong taking cold showers working out and I didn't even think or watch or even have anything to do with porn etc. until day 6 late night urges and my old self telling me "just do it man" I didn't listen to that version of me and I ended up going to sleep. And today the next day day 7 it's around 12 afternoon 1 pm ish I relapsed because it kept beating down on me and now I feel like I'm back in that cycle again. It's like since I've done it so much when I'm on a finally long streak it's like man I get so scared I'm gonna fall again...