u/Soft-Sherbert-6398

I feel horrible for saying all of this, but I have no one else to turn to for help. I have been in a relationship with my fiance for three years. He is 23, and I am 22. Our wedding is scheduled for October. I started to notice my partner growing physically distant from me at the beginning of this year. He barely kisses me, doesn't partake in touching me very much, and our sex life has come to a complete halt. He has no interest in any of it. This lack of physical touch kills me. Touch is my love language through and through, but it "scares him." Prior to this year, everything was fine. Now, he feels as if I am too good for him, hence his reluctancy to touch me. He also has refused to help me make wedding plans or gets too stressed to help when I ask. He is totally avoiding the subject of marriage now too. I feel so unloved. I can't handle it. I have been doing so much research into helping him (I paid for months of couples counceling, found him a private therapist, and just recently have been buying him self help books). Nothing works. He no-shows with the therapists or cancels, so he can never get in with them when he is having episodes. I am just so tired. I am miserable. He has been acting so horribly this week all while knowing my grandfather died this weekend. What can I do to not go insane? I don't feel loved. He loves me so much that he thinks I deserve someone better, but the only person I want is him.

I feel horrible for saying all of this, but I have no one else to turn to for help. I have been in a relationship with my fiance for three years. He is 23, and I am 22. Our wedding is scheduled for October. I started to notice my partner growing physically distant from me at the beginning of this year. He barely kisses me, doesn't partake in touching me very much, and our sex life has come to a complete halt. He has no interest in any of it. This lack of physical touch kills me. Touch is my love language through and through, but it "scares him." Prior to this year, everything was fine. Now, he feels as if I am too good for him, hence his reluctancy to touch me. I feel so unloved. I can't handle it. I have been doing so much research into helping him (I paid for months of couples counceling, found him a private therapist, and just recently have been buying him self help books). Nothing works. He no-shows with the therapists or cancels, so he can never get in with them when he is having episodes. I am just so tired. I am miserable. What do i do?